God is still watching over me.
For the word of the LORD is right; and all his works are done in truth. He loveth righteousness and judgment: the earth is full of the goodness of the Lord. By the word of the Lord were the heavens made; and all the host of them by the breath of his mouth. – Psalm 33:4-6
I feel the safe, confidence of the Lord who watches over me as I receive responses to my applications for a job. I know not to follow my feelings and emotions because those are not always indicating the truth about a situation, especially about whether God is real or not. I just believe and He answers me with opportunities.
Now I am needing a better job opportunity. As I’ve said in the past, I currently work below my skill level, and only part-time for a security company that I fell into, at first working full-time for them as a permanent position, and that is why I work for them; it is a permanent position. I can’t say the hours are always full-time but I was tired of working for the temporary staffing agencies I had worked for while I lived in my apartment in Everett.
I feel the Lord beckoning me, in a way in my heart. My heart knowledge is what I follow; he seems to put a desire in my heart, or at least He makes it clear what I really want to do in any given situation, and what I do not want to do. If I am believing in the Lord Jesus Christ, I am going to pay attention to, and be sensitive to, what is in my mind-heart connection. It is a sensory guidance that surpasses understanding.
My identity comes from the Lord. I was changed when I became a true believer. That is what the bible says.
Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new. – 2 Corinthians 5:17
My past identity working in the field of psychology has faded away; I no longer want to work in that field. I feel it is seriously lacking and that is not where my true ability lies. Anyone can do those positions; just memorize what they tell you in courses, and past the tests, write the papers and show up for work. It takes a special skill but probably any field you get into is possible for anyone that studies to pass the tests and works in those fields.
What I am getting at is that if your identity has changed from becoming a believer, don’t be surprised if you are led to become something else in life. This means your job will change, maybe you’ll be led to start a business for yourself. It may be something you hadn’t thought of as a serious source of income, but let God decide. He can open doors and close others any time, and I am wanting to do something in the world that I am specificually talented enugh to do. There is only one of me and I am not a cookie cutter of someone’s else’s job requirements; I would rather form my own.
I worried a bit about all the Christians owning their own company then getting sued for abiding in their faith, such as the bakeries that won’t decorate cakes for gay weddings. It is a scary prospect that in my business, of writing and perhaps publicly speaking in some manner, that someone, somewhere will become offended, and I will be taken away in handcuffs for being a Nazi or dragged into court for something. Maybe I’ll be accused of discrimination against violent Islam, I don’t know yet. But God provides. He really does. You just have to believe on Him long enough before you see how he works in your life. He really does.
Now, with the Lord’s guiding me, I have peace that surpasses all understanding. Imagine that, not enough income yet I feel peaceful about that. I know I am being led by a guiding angel; a spiritual voice that never interferes with what I am doing and never tells me bad things, but one that has always reassured me and led me to the Lord in all my issues surrounding prayers I have sent up.
If we decide to trust in the Lord, which he asks, then we must make a decision that He is worth trusting, and do our best to take the steps we need to get to the place we want to go. He puts our desires in our hearts, at least He did mine, to become a blogger while I wait for a speaking position to open up. Meanwhile I’m getting ready by blogging.
Since I like to write I have blogged on and off for several years but never taking it seriously due to outside interference when there was no time to blog on a regular basis. Now at this point in life where I’ve become a van dweller, after praying for help with affording my daily living and giving up apartment living, I am carving a life that will support blogging on a regular basis. My office is in the back of my van.
Today I walked the Arboretum in Everett, clearing my head and just enjoying the sunshine. We had a beautiful day today in the Pacific Northwest and it’s a beautiful day now. I’m parked at a park blogging this, enjoying myself tremendously.
God is good.