As I went driving around I thought I’d take some video of the Everett, Washington area. I no longer live in Everett, but I come up here to go to the library and wait until I have to be at work up north in Mount Vernon, tonight. In case you’re wondering, here is the video I took:
In this video I enjoy seeing where I felt stuck, at a job that didn’t pay much. I look in my surroundings and feel as if I’ve been left behind in time, that it’s not the place I want to be. It feels a little behind the times, and I’m more of a modern, city-dweller and I want to live in a modern area, with modern, more sophisticated people. It’s more my environment.
More people in cities I’ve worked in seem to have a more comfortable enviroment that I enjoy. People are busy and can be friendly and seem to not have to stare as much, whereas in smaller towns where the people don’t really have much to do stare a lot more and seem to have nothing on their minds but what you do. They are intrusive, and that makes me very uncomfortable.
As I thought back to places I’ve lived, as an atheist, I felt more comfortable where people let you walk around, down a sidewalk, or in a store, and I felt anonymous enough to feel free. Otherwise, in small towns I have felt like somethiung’s missing; a boundary line between me and them.
I’ve written before about how I’ve felt stalked and by “immediate intimacy connectors” who seem to feel I owe them something; my time, my appreciation, my acting like I like them.
What losers. It’s hard to get rid of them, but they’re a good example of the barnyard, small town animal type that I cannot get away from. They come for me like flies. I guess I’m too nice and accomidating because these people seem to think they own me forever but I’m learning how to get free of them almost immediately and give no thought about it. I’ve talked about satan and how he likes to hurt us and cause us pain through other people’s behaviors, as if he were punishing us for coming to Christ. I am a Christian believer and I want everyone to know that, even enemies from my past.
But to you who are listening I say: Love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you. – Luke 6:27-28
I do think we are to love people, knowing that even the worst people can be redeemed by Christ, and I also think we are at the same time called to be wise, which means that we don’t give up our rights and freedoms to people who think they own them, and us.
Behold, I send you forth as sheep in the midst of wolves. Be ye therefore wise as serpents and harmless as doves. – Matthew 10:16
Too many people seem to forget this verse, and they say we have to be kind to all people. Well I tell you that if I’m ever faced with a life or death situation, such as someone’s pointing a gun in my face, I will fight to the death.
That is being wise as a serpant, to my mind.