I really am angry at preachers who are falsely teaching the schools of thought leading to the “seeker sensitive, new-apostolic reformation, prosperity gospel, divine healing” and even the “fourth wave” Christianity. I was caught in one of those being new to the faith, seeking the Lord Jesus Christ, and not knowing what to do to “find” him. I tried speaking in tongues until one night I actually did at home in my apartment there in Vacaville, California. What I didn’t know is that I was being taught the false doctrine of the devil, who might have begun to target me years before, for accepting people’s reciting The Lord’s Prayer, at the end of some 12-step recovery meetings I attended.
Rewind back to about year 1986, I can remember, I had given birth to my daughter but had attended many a meeting for being married to an alcoholic. I was raised to be an atheist, my father had been an alcoholic, and I married and alcoholic. Seems the norm for many of us who were raised in that kind of family.
Then when I had attended Al-Anon meetings, branched out into several other recovery meetings and groups where they said that we could “have a god of our own understanding”, I became open to the possibility of God being Jesus Christ. I guess you could say I became very tolerant of those people, saying The Lord’s Prayer myself at the end of those meetings.
Going to church in that false-doctrine, “full gospel” church that was so misleading, I think that Satan got his way when I fell down on my face, in a manner of speaking, learning the wrong doctrine and thinking I was “speaking in tongues”. But it was all gibberish with no understanding on my part – or God’s. He must have been truly upset to see a lady seeking Him speaking gibberish, then for years after that, being tormented by demons of the devil. I am so mad at the false doctrines of mega-church pastors, not letting people really come to know God, but getting in the way of the people God reached out to in order that they respond and want to know him, so that they can lead lives with God’s strength, kindness and courage he gives that we are not capable of, of ourselves.
He is real and true, and I was mislead, but Jesus has called out to me in a way I can answer. He never let go of my life but kept me in his hands. I have found God today and talk to Him regularly, knowing my strength comes from him; my bravery to stand up to the tyranny of people who try to stand in my way and stop me from whatever I am doing.
The annoyances of creeps who want to hurt me at work is one way I know satan uses people to come at me, but I win in this due to God’s helping me to understand; He is real, and is the One True God.
False-doctrine, be damned.