It is very hard to make a way for yourself when you are confronted with mean, angry people. I know that this is how God wants it; he has plans for the earth, and I know how it ends. I have that benefit; I read the bible and have read Revelation several times. I will continue to do so and engage less and less with these people who are mean, making it hard to go about my everyday activities without their taking offense. It seems as though everything I do in a normal manner, will always make some people mad. This is the mores of today.
I believe it is satan trying to hurt me since I became a Christian. He never quits, he seeks to kill, steal and destroy us Christians. We are warned in the bible that we will be in a spiritual battle all our lives and we should expect it. And expect injustices against us.
I was at The Sophia Way at the Lutheran church again today, the program that serves homeless women, and men who identify as women. It has been a little unnerving to have to go there for services, such as showering, and washing my laundry. I do not enjoy having a man in the bathroom while I’m in there, who wanted to know how to put on make up and got into a conversation with a sympathetic woman who was sitting in the bathroom about this.
It’s the times that we are in, it’s getting worse and less civilized out here. I’m a homeless woman living in a van who has no interest in talking with men who identify as women in the women’s bathroom. It’s become a very public place where there seem to be no privacy or normal boundaries for the civilized, and we are all expected to go along with the loosening of boundaries that subject everyone to having to accept men in the women’s bathroom. Where there are showers, and we have to spend our private time in these situation where we don’t want to expose ourselves, our bodies, to these perverted men. That’s who I am as a Christian.
I just want to say that for a place that advertises that they keep everyone safe there, I did not feel safe today.
Today as I signed in at the front desk, I immediately hear a lady in the dining room, who was sitting at a table, shout, “yeah, ya gotta have your headphones on, and not hear anything we are saying!”, referring to my headphones being on while I was listening to my cell phone, signing in. This was just uncalled for and very unfriendly.
Continue in prayer, and watch in the same with thanksgiving; Withal praying also for us, that God would open unto us a door of utterance, to speak the mystery of Christ, for which I am also in bonds: That I may make it manifest, as I ought to speak. Walk in wisdom toward them that are without, redeeming the time. Let your speech be alway with grace, seasoned with salt, that ye may know how ye ought to answer every man. ~ Colossians 4:2-6
I had to do my laundry, take a shower and eat my lunch. The man who is usually sitting at the table in the meal room with everyone was not there today but I had to interact with a woman who walked in the laundry room and leaned against the counter right behind me. She said, “Look what we have here!” as if I was some kind of problem or someone blocking her from using the laundry room. Instead of answering, or stopping what I was doing to look over at her, I remained silent and ignored her. She then shoved her way in to use the dryer, and it wasn’t her turn, while I was bent down loading my clothes in the washer under the dryer she was using. Instead of allowing me a few minutes to finish and perhaps give me elbow room, since I was signed up and she was not and I had been there first, and she could of waited, all this happened and she began to yell at me. She shouted right in my face that she had the right to start her dryer where the panel to turn on the dryer was right next to me. She should have waited. She shouldn’t have been in the dryers at all since she was not signed up. But this did not stop her.
After exchanging just a word with her, I told her she should wait, and that I would be done in a few minutes. I told her “you don’t have to yell”, and “can’t you give me some space?”
Moreover if thy brother shall trespass against thee, go and tell him his fault between thee and him alone: if he shall hear thee, thou hast gained thy brother. ~ Matthew 18:15
But instead of quietly waiting for me to get through, she seemed to stay angry. My quiet confronting of this woman about her conduct went unheard. She still acted angry and mean. At this point with enough of these experiences, I no longer wait for them to understand; I left the laundry room once I had loaded my clothes. Some people are so far overboard, that I can see that they are already gone to the side of satan. It seems they want the fight, and I just don’t have time. After loading my laundry, I went to take a shower in the shower stall I had signed up for, but there was someone showering in the stall I had reserved, and so she shouldn’t have been in there. I calmly approached the staff to ask them if I should take a shower in another shower space. She informed me what shower stall to use. These are thankfully private with an additional drape to pull around the shower stall, beyond the shower curtain, so that there is a certain amount of privacy. But I can still hear the conversations going on in the women’s restroom.
If anyone comes to you and does not bring this teaching, do not receive him into your house or give him any greeting, for whoever greets him takes part in his wicked works. ~ 2 John 1:10-11
Back to my laundry to change the clothes awhile later and put them in my dryer, but there were clothes in my dryer from the lady who yelled at me. I patiently asked the staff for help, but they dallied along, doing little to nothing, speaking to the lady who yelled at me who took her laundry out, but left clothes in the dryer. Confused, I brought this up to the staff, and after they finished helping another client, one got up to again help me. I told her in a low tone of voice about the lady who had yelled at me, and I didn’t feel comfortable about this. She walked away, saying nothing to me. “Is this crazy or what?”, I was thinking. The staff doesn’t do much of anything, and they are deaf to my complaints. The other staff person did the same thing when I told her quietly about the lady yelling at me. I wasn’t satisfied; I felt that someone should have been protecting me from the bad behavior I had experienced. I knew that in those places you have to go to the staff, because if anyone starts to complain that I did something or said something they didn’t like, that I would be the one punished and I didn’t want that happening to me.
I went to ask the other staff person if she could solve the problem of the person’s clothes being in the drying I had signed up for. In the past the staff has directed me to make sure I use the washer and dryer that I have signed up to use so I suppose they thought it was important which dryer I used. The washers and dryers are all numbered. But nobody seemed to care who was using what laundry facilities or what shower today, nor were they worried that someone yelled at me, pushing there way in to crowd my space, adding insult to injury.
Walk in wisdom toward outsiders, making the best use of the time. Let your speech always be gracious, seasoned with salt, so that you may know how you ought to answer each person. ~ Colossians 4:5-6
Finally I got my laundry done, got out of there, and am here in the library. It’s really not a big deal, these things that happened to me, but I’m just noticing how everything seems to be more difficult for me, these daily things, in life even more than I am used to. These agencies don’t do what they profess to do. I actually think I could make a case for their discriminating against me by the way the staff treated me upon hearing how I was treated. So many things going wrong in one day in one place, where they claim they make you safe, does seem like something is wrong, something is wrong in society today.
Therefore be imitators of God, as beloved children. ~ Ephesians 5:1
We know what God has planned for the future of the world. These will not be the people He has saved, at least not now. I have to look at people such as these with empathy, for they will never know the peace of God but may go on in their lives yelling and being hostile toward peaceful people. How they chase us away!
I am hoping to have a chance to write more about the nonprofits I have worked for in the past, where people acted badly, sadly. They are the agencies who claim to be the “helping agencies”, and these examples from today seem to punctuate the need for better staff who are willing to do what their agency says, to stand up and be counted about right behavior and treating all persons the same. What hypocrisy that the staff gets away with going deaf when they hear a complaint about bad behavior, and other people not following the rules – and, not to be petty – they need to hold to normal, personal boundaries and civilized behavior, and uphold their own rules of conduct.
I do wonder whether this is a Jesus Christ action, where low morals get to be where they are in life, that the agencies perpetuating sin, of supporting the gay lifestyle and “gender fluidity” are able to “hear” with any understanding. Do they have morals or are they so bought into the social standards of the day that they see no wrong in how they treat people, where some are treated with more respect than others. Being a person with white skin, I have to wonder whether the liberal stronghold in my area of the country, here in Washington state, has given people of color more rights, respect and regard, than whether a person was born white. Why were my complaints falling on seemingly deaf ears where none of these breaches in conduct according to their own rules were not being followed? It makes me think that I can expect more bad behavior toward whites. After all, it seems that the political mores of the day make it seem as if the white people of the world are guilty of all that’s wrong in the world.
There is neither Jew nor Greek, there is neither slave nor free, there is no male and female, for you are all one in Christ Jesus. ~ Galatians 3:28
Did anyone choose the color of their skin? I don’t remember doing so. Does anyone remember? Was there a menu I forgot about, where I could choose what color I wanted to be when I was born? Okay, I’ve got to admit this is getting a little extreme, but I fear for the white, Christian, people of the world who live in very liberal states, that we will be blamed for what I believe the liberals are doing, supporting that destroy the cities and states they hold a majority in, where the government makes the laws that support the liberal ideology. Remember Detroit and the fall of the automotive industry? Detroit has been run by Democrats. Other cities too show evidence of how Democrats are using their power to run a state into the ground. But this is for someone else’s column.
We know that God does not look at the person’s outward appearance; he looks at the heart.
But the LORD said unto Samuel, Look not on his countenance, or on the height of his stature; because I have refused him: for the LORD seeth not as man seeth; for man looketh on the outward appearance, but the LORD looketh on the heart. ~ 1 Samuel 16:7
With all this turmoil in life for so many, we have to remember that Jesus has taught us some ways to walk in peace in this world. But don’t let down His standards of conduct, and be wise, walking as He walked, to the best of our ability. We do not have to give everything we own away, and I believe since Jesus went to the cross for us that we do not have to martyr ourselves. His work is done. Stay strong in the Christian walk with people, everywhere. As Jesus said in John 17:16,
They are not of the world, even as I am not of the world.
We belong with Him in heaven, and are just passing through.