My topic today is forgiveness, a hard topic to talk about because there is so much about the topic and from a mental health point of view, that it is hard to really acknowledge that it is the Holy Spirit that forgives, not us.
It can’t be taken lightly because many who find themselves seeking mental health services are often the victims of some childhood abuse, or are being traumatized by evil in the world.
I get mad at the thought where I was once told to “forgive” someone who battered me years ago, as if it would go away; the damage that was done, the terror I felt, the aloneness and alienation I felt when my own family would not “be there for me” and provide the support I wanted. I worked in mental health at the time and so my friend telling me to just simply “forgive” all the damage and pain that my batterer had caused me seemed unimaginable. It was really unbelievable that she could just seem to dismiss this pain and the hurt it had caused me. I was truly harmed by it and she could not understand the degree of pain I was in. It was only a superficial response; she was telling me what we have learned to do: forgive.
Forgiving is better than staying bitter and angry we are told, but we don’t know why this is best. We don’t know how to do it even, and that’s because we are incapable of it. We are unable to truly forgive a person because we run only so deep in our heart’s and minds. We are of the flesh, fallen in nature and so only can do so much in healing ourselves. If we even can.
By the way Bill Haferkamp Sr. said my first name publicly on Facebook was a kind of threatening to my soul. He was going to “out” me on Facebook by telling his audience my real name so that a batterer that hurt me in the past could possibly track me on Facebook, thereby bringing up the possibility of that batterer learning my whereabouts and knowing where I lived, putting my life in danger. That’s a pastor for you and his name is Bill Haferkamp Sr., on Facebook. This is what he needs to repent from; trying to put other people’s lives in danger.
He who restrains his words has knowledge, And he who has a cool spirit is a man of understanding. ~ Proverbe 17:27
He needs to repent for more: calling my friend names, and verbally jousting about with the other pastor, Clifford Short, at my friend’s expense, seeing it all as fun and games while being in the presence of God, our Holy Father who sees what goes on.
These are not the kind of “pastors” I seek or want to learn from. They are fools, full of themselves, sluggish in their lack of study, lack of knowledge, of the bible where they feign to teach from.
For though I preach the gospel, I have nothing to glory of: for necessity is laid upon me; yea, woe is unto me, if I preach not the gospel! ~ 1 Corinthians 9:16
They do not even know that you don’t act that way in public, especially on social media where others will read what they wrote. It will get republished and talked about in other areas of life where they tarnish whatever respect they might have gotten if they rightly divided the word instead of ganging up on people who do not believe in their being “filled with the Holy Spirit” which cannot let that kind of thing provide guidance to some people who are still seeking God these days, which are very few.
Because strait is the gate, and narrow is the way, which leadeth unto life, and few there be that find it. ~ Matthew 7:14
You can’t forgive alone, you are only able to do what’s fleshly. Clearing away the hurt of the past to forgive another person who has harmed or wronged you cannot be done by yourself; you must truly have the Holy Spirit to give the love of Christ to another human being, really have a changed heart that comes from the Holy Spirit, and forgives, so that there is a true cleansing of anger, rage, the bitterness that comes from feeling harmed by another human being, and being healed of it completely, so that it no longer harms you. It is a true healing, and is miraculous.
26 “In your anger do not sin” : Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry, 27 and do not give the devil a foothold. … 29 Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen. 30 And do not grieve the Holy Spirit of God, with whom you were sealed for the day of redemption. 31 Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice. ~ Ephesians 4:26-27, 29-31
Forgiveness and restraint from angry outbursts are provided for from the loving restraint of the Holy Spirit. You probably can’t forgive alone, you are only able to do what’s fleshly, because we are human. We are not gods who perform miracles, and really heal people by imparting our own healing spirit to people. That would be but filthy rags we are imparting to people. So if you want and impartation from someone, better make sure he is Holy, first. And that’s Christ, the only Holy man who lived, and who still lives.
Miraculous healing and imparting of the Holy Spirit comes from Christ. Redemption and saving us from sin comes from Christ who saved us from the grave.
Christ heals, Christ gifts people with His Holy spirit, who can do all things because he is also Christ, and Father God, all in one. They have the same power, they are the same God in different forms to us, but are all the same Father God, our Creator, our Savior, our Holy Spirit we are given as a gift. No man gives us this gift, it is God’s gift and he decides who gets it, not some man, placing his hands upon you and saying in effect, “you are not god and so go heal people and proclaim that you are Jesus but call yourself something else, a pastor or someone else’s name but we know we are truly healing because we are fine and dandy men who can impart what is Holy to another person, right?” What hogwash! It is only God who imparts a healing or who sends a person His Holy Spirit.
It is God alone who performs miracles and can cleanse us and heal us from the past of our fleshly lives and our fleshly, fallen ways of life.
We can only be of this world, born into fleshly bodies, and have fallen into sin from the time of Adam on, and we are not able to be more than humans in fleshly bodies with fallen natures. We are not Holy and cannot cleanse ourselves; our hearts cannot be clean, unless we are of God’s Holy Spirit where he inhabits our hearts, and He is who is clean, not us.
Man isn’t capable of healing another person’s pain, and that’s why I can’t agree with the mental health system of “healing”. They leave God out of the healing. They impart something else into a person that cannot heal; it can only make worse what the person believes who does the imparting since he is healing from sin, and believes satan is the cure, especially if he is not a Christian. Satan can do magic tricks and can heal if he wants to I suppose, but is it really a healing, or is it some magic trick that keeps the person in bondage to satan? Would satan heal out of his goodness? What goodness does satan really have? Isn’t he a slave to sin, as well as mankind? Without Christ can healing ever take place in it’s truest sense? Chains and bonds are broken with Christ; satan offers the exact opposite. Man’s medicine can heal or assist the body to get well, but can it really heal? Doctor’s don’t have the healing capacity; it is God’s alone. Man cannot heal another man. It must be God that heals.
God the Creator heals, not man alone, without God.
Man can try and refrain from getting angry, but the sun goes down and man cannot forgive and forget; not that easily, if ever, I don’t know. We carry with us the memory of old hurts we can never get away from, never move on from and never truly clean ourselves from. We are not born Holy. It is Holiness that cures us and it does not come from man.
“For from within, out of the heart of men, proceed the evil thoughts, fornications, thefts, murders, adulteries, ~ Mark 7:21
If a man is out of control and calls people names such as on Facebook, and is unable to calm down when his anger, and doesn’t even want to, that is not a godly thing to do, especially when it is a pastor. I have to laugh. Most men calling themselves pastors are not pastors; they are something else. The church is of God and man is ordained by God but not to call names and be ugly right out on social media. This is ungodly and is out of control. The anger which which the pastor acted who I wrote about on this blog a few days ago, showed up that he is not “saved”, and that he had no idea that he was sinning in the face of God by calling out a few of we Christians, who are truly believers in Christ Jesus.
He let his anger and rage go uncontrolled and he really made a fool of himself and should repent from that. I’m still going through the comments on my Facebook page (which were not retrievable on my cell phone), probably because there were so many that they would not open up on my Facebook page, all while I didn’t even know this was taking place, probably because I was at work or doing something else.
His ungodly behavior went public, and what a mistake he made to show himself publicly as a hateful, ugly man. Since then, someone who I’ve not been in direct contact with before contacted me, I won’t say how, and whose identity I will never share, who has said Bill is a mean man and this person has some first-hand knowledge of the fact. “Bill Haferkamp Sr.” is on Facebook and you can find out for yourself how he acts, who he is angry with, and whether someone else claims that he is a mean, angry man.
I have said we must forgive, and I do forgive his wrongfulness, and I mentioned this on my Facebook page where he posted, but I did so because I have God in my life. I could have remained angry had I not known God to take away the pain and my anger. I take pity on this man that must harm others, and to call himself a pastor and do what he did especially, is an abomination. He will be judged, and for his sin he will be kept out of heaven, and that’s why I feel pity on such a man. Without true repentance, he will not be saved. That is what the bible teaches us, to repent and give ourselves to the Lord Jesus Christ.
I want to make sure you realize what’s going on here with this very bullying man who wanted me to follow what he and his wife taught. They suggested I come down to Oregon because I wanted to find a better life’s situation where I could find a job and settle down. But after I found that I would be unable to go to his church because of their belief in the manifestations, feeling and ecstatic states of the Pentecostal church and where speaking in tongues was a strong part of their belief, I thought I would have a problem being with people who I thought were friends at the time, who I enjoyed speaking with up to a point, until I began to latch onto the truth of the bible, where speaking of tongues is actually an impartation of the devil. I found I felt I could not go on with friends as these.
It is good to keep oneself apart in Christian pursuits, as John MacArthur said, from people who are following after weird and strange “fire”; manifestations with the impartations from their leaders, who advocate the speaking in tongues, or laughing hysterically, shaking, crawling or rolling on the ground, seeking plumes of fire and smoke or glitter falling from the ceiling, and other manifestations, that are not of the One True God. I wanted to state that these things can, and will, mislead people into thinking that they are following God when in fact they are following demonic wild imaginings that are attributed to God but are from satan.
People either are chasing the flesh, or are chasing demons in those so-called “churches”, because that is what they focus on and it’s not about God in any way, shape or form. Simply put, those pastors do not even know God and to portray him in that way to unknowing, naive and lazy people, is a sin. They will pay for it in hell unless they repent and turn from their ways, ask God for forgiveness and try and understand the bible as best as is humanly possible. But they often never do. It takes too much work to study the bible and keep going with it every day, and these people are lazy, and would not gather the people they have nor the money they collect by the false teachings they say are of God.
My point in forgiveness is that man is bad; he has a fallen nature and that is why so many of these churches teach these false things. I am sorry if you’ve experienced these things when you thought you were going to a “church” where you wanted to learn about God, and Jesus Christ, and the Holy Spirit.
The Holy Spirit only resides within your heart if you are a sincere, true “Believer” in Jesus Christ, and if you live in a way that puts God’s teachings first by reading the bible and praying to God every day, He will make himself apparent to you. Always putting God first in your life, and being awed by His Glory, is what you should be doing, as a Christian, and not chasing after miracles. Miracles is God’s business and not a thing man created, after all.