Thou art my hiding place; thou shalt preserve me from trouble; thou shalt compass me about with songs of deliverance. Selah. – Psalms 32:7
It seemed to me today to go through with a day’s fast; one I’d planned for a few days but was not ready until today. I think when you get to a place where you want to fast it is best to be mentally prepared and yield yourself to the purification of the fast, knowing that you want to come close to God, and ask for His help. I do want His help and guidance on my life today.
This may seem strange but I had to quit a job, a really good one due to the fact that an employee stole my little purse with my wallet in it and no one seemed to bother with asking the details about what happened.
I have since forgiven the employee; and have given the situation to God. I had wanted to try and make it work but there are boundaries that are meant to be kept for God’s people, in my belief, of civility and safety. We are to be wise as serpents and meek as doves (Matthew 10:16).
So after days of my stomach feeling anxiety whenever I went to that building to go to work, something kept telling me that it wasn’t good for me to be there, to stay away and get away from the beast.
At least that’s what it seemed like, the message I got in my spirit. It was a sick, evil demon who wanted me to lose my job and lose my income, and the Lord intervened, I believe. I went in one last time and talked with my call center manager who has a doctorate degree in psychology and who is a licensed therapist.
She said that she “didn’t know I felt that way” about working there having my wallet stolen, and the employee following me around keeping tabs on me often, that I felt uncomfortable – ill at ease. She didn’t ask any more questions, just telling me that my performance was not high enough, and special training would be needed, otherwise I would not be able to take the crisis calls we sometimes would get.
Now don’t get me wrong, I have taken crisis calls before in my life and knew what to do; only I was feeling ill at ease because someone sat two cubicles behind me, waiting and watching to monitor my whereabouts, who I talked to and other such behaviors. It sent my world into an unsafe, dark place. This distracted me, and I found myself planning how to address the next situation I knew I would find myself in with this person bothering me rather than keeping my mind on my work.
Now today I have fasted up until dinner time, praying on and off all day, waiting on the Lord to tell me what I should be doing about income. I feel he is the one who protected my life, and in the uncertainty of not knowing what that employee would do to me, he felt it best I leave that job. I’ve had experience when another employee years ago tried to subterfuge my career in a job I would not have left, but it is my belief that some angel(s) spoke to me about leaving that job too. It was not a safe place to be.
I don’t know if any of you ever experienced a spirit who led you out of darkness to a new path, believing you are only capable of being vulnerable to terrible people and being led into a self-regarding, person of integrity, who wants to be treated civilly. The victimhood that I experienced growing up has been changing slowly, with reading the Word of God and through prayer and fasting. I am a new person today and I trust God completely.
My message today is that if we are Christians, and baby Christians walking with Christ Jesus, we need to see how we are to plan for life, being in these crazy times ahead. We know that we are in the “Last Days” of the bible, even the last hour and even the last minutes of the time clock when we will be raptured out of here to the safe, loving arms of our Savior, Jesus Christ. It’s waiting it out that’s become a challenge, with having to pay the bills and seeking a safe place to live for the remaining time we have here on earth.
I urge you, my dear readers, to turn to who you can believe in and trust with your very being. A life pleasing to Christ Jesus is that we trust Him completely. He wouldn’t have it any other way for his people; his bride.
Like or comment on this blog post to receive prayer for you each day while I continue to set up a conference call for others like me who enjoy safe fellowship, prayer and sharing our lives. Today’s churches are not safe spaces for all of us who are already believers; they seem to have become watered-down vessels for the world and are not shepherding in the new believers in Christ who need comfort, fellowship, and guides in the Word of God.