About Suzanne

Formerly a Mental Health Clinician, I have changed my thoughts about the mental health industry. This blog is about my Christian view of things, including the psychology of mankind.

Thoughts On Not Working In Mental Health-Lake Hills GreenBelt Park Bellevue WA

Here’s a video I did while walking in a park while I sorted out my thoughts about not working in the mental health field.  I did this video over a year ago while working on my thoughts about God who is managing my life.  I turn to him every day – I live a simple life but I do not know where he is taking me – through hills and dales and training me.

Thoughts On Not Working In Mental Health-Lake Hills GreenBelt Park Bellevue WA

Students Having To Become Homeless So They Can Pay For College: Pray

homeless-3301347_640The internet is full of videos about the homeless and about drug addiction.  Since this is a growing problem and is at a crisis already, more people should speak out about the homeless problem which is not only mentally ill people and drug addiction, but students living in cars (or tents) because of the high cost of housing.

It is unaffordable to live in the wealthiest states in America; California, New York, even Washington state where I live.  Seattle has grown and the homeless population is more prominent than it ever has been.  Seattle is called the Emerald City and has fantastic wealth and all around you see tents pitched along the sidewalks and homeless people pushing shopping carts with their belongings finding places where they can stop and rest to be pushed along by business owners and citizens who call the police on them.

I know the homeless camps have become very common in that more programs are being allowed.  Tiny home village closures near Seattle now put the burden of homeless housing onto tent cities that have to move every three months or they will not be allowed to exist.  Can you imagine having to move a tent city that often?

There are not enough tent cities to accommodate the growing number of people who can’t live in apartments or rent rooms in people’s houses because the cost of rent is too high.  Much too high.  I can pay $850/month rent for a bedroom and possibly a private bathroom near Seattle, where up the highway about five years ago I could pay about $575 for a studio.  That same studio could rent for around $1,100 these days.

Apartments near Seattle go for $1,800/month rent for a one-bedroom and I don’t make enough to pay that high rent.  It’s gotten worse; people are not able to keep their homes and so turn to tent encampments where they live out their lives never able to afford the sky-high rentals in the areas near Seattle.  It has become a nightmare.

Living near the hub of “Seattle’s Silicon Valley” seems to be in concert with the same issues of Silicon Valley of California; the tech companies are employing people who live in their cars, and God knows where else, in order to find decent jobs. 

One video I watched tonight showed how a PhD student in engineering was living in his car to afford earning his degree.  Where will he ever find a decent job to make the cost of earning his doctorate degree at a prestigious school worth what he has to go through?  How can one study and learn in that kind of living environment?  He talked about the embarrassment he felt living that way that made it too uncomfortable to tell anyone he was having to live in his car to pay the tuition in Southern California.

When I was earning a doctorate degree that I couldn’t finish – I maxed out student loans and I could not obtain another student loan – I never dreamed I’d have to live in a car just to complete the degree.  Can one do their best academically while being housed in a car or a tent?  What is happening to our educational system when students are becoming homeless just to pay college tuition?   

Are the clues showing that our society is about to become homeless?


Doing Taxes And Being Disciplined With Our Budgets

May the favor of the Lord our God rest on us; establish the work of our hands for us – yes, establish the work of our hands. – Psalm 90:17

accounting analytics balance black and white

You may already know that taxes are due to be post-marked no later than Monday, April 15th, to be on time, otherwise request an extension.  I did my taxes but will have to mail them on Monday morning, after I get to work where I will print them off to mail them.  Some of you may have been able to file your taxes online; that’s wonderful, but for some reason mine wouldn’t go through to be filed online, hence I must mail them in.

Here’s a nice article about paying taxes related to biblical teaching:  What did Jesus mean when He said, “Render to Caesar what is Caesar’s”?

I hope you were able to file your taxes without problems.  It seems that when we don’t stay organized with government paperwork we can become so stressed by their required responses on their forms.  I understand completely.

One of my new tricks is to use a free budget tracker where I have all my bills and income plugged in with my financial goals and limits set each month so that I can see how I’ve done every month when it comes to sticking to my budget.  I am using Mint although there are probably other good ones out there and I’m not getting paid if you click the link.  Just so you know.  

Another trick is to use a monthly calendar where I write the amount of the payment on the day it is due, that way I can see it readily and it reminds me that the money will be taken out of my account.  I also note whether each amount is on “auto-pay” or not.

It is good to get organized and it’s never too late to be organized.  It will help in the long run.

I pray for you each day, that you may become knowledgeable of the Lord Jesus Christ by calling on him today; he will answer you and make himself known to you.  May he bring you peace and happiness, I pray this in Jesus’ name.  Amen.



Addiction To Heroin Should Be Treated As A Serious Mental Illness: Make Mandatory Treatment A Requirement

addict-2713620_640My concern with homelessness is that most people are addicted to some form of alcohol or drugs, or both.  Many videos I have watched on homelessness report that a growing addiction of the homeless is to fentanyl, an opiate that is 50 times stronger than heroin where the addicted must use in order to keep from feeling sick much more often than if they were on heroin. 

This is the reason why drug pushers want to get people hooked on fentanyl, so the addicted buyers have to buy their fixes more often or they begin feeling sick and going into withdrawal, needing a hit to feel better again.  The drug pushers are now putting fentanyl into heroin to get their customers hooked on fentanyl and keeping them coming back much more often.  This is very expensive and the homeless already are cash-strapped so are forced into crime in order to support their habits.  This forms a health crisis to both the addicted and to the general public.

What I don’t understand is why we tolerate such addiction when the seriously mentally ill are given no choice, but are confronted by police who take them in to be evaluated where they are held involuntarily for 72 hours in order to be re-evaluated and given meds if it is deemed that they are supposed to take them.  They are viewed as being  “gravely disabled” and unable to care for themselves, much like the addict who is asleep on the sidewalk needing drugs to keep him feeling halfway normal and not sick. 

Due to the problem of crime, with health issues and the possibility that an addict will starve, overdose or fall asleep in some unsafe place leads one to believe that they are also gravely disabled and no choice should be given to them to live outdoors in a manner that is much like how stray dogs must live.  They should be removed from the premises and given a health checkup and given a place to stay to get clean and sober off drugs.  They cannot take care of themselves and a tent on a sidewalk is no way to keep healthy and remaining free of street drugs.

Much like a mentally ill person who cannot take care of themselves, addicts should be given treatment and not given a choice about this.  They should be taught life skills and their records should have a notification that reflects that they were under the influence of some drug at the time they committed crimes to support their drug habit.  This is to ensure that the person is given appropriate consequences for their crimes, if they were under the influence at the time, which would mean mandatory drug treatment.  Drug treatment that addresses the issue over a long period of time, and not just a 60-day drug treatment program or some short stay in a recovery program.

After all, seriously mentally ill patients are given drugs to deal with their symptoms, so why is it different that the drug addict, experiencing some symptoms making them feel unwell cannot steal to buy the drugs that make them feel “well”, or at least better so that they aren’t experiencing symptoms caused by not taking their usual drugs that they become physically, mentally and spiritually addicted to?

A New Home

Going home.

You might think I meant going to heaven; heh heh, well almost – I moved over the weekend into an apartment by myself and this has been a delight I’ve enjoyed although it has made me tired.

A good tired.

God has given me the desire of my heart; it could not have been a better place.  It is quiet with only seniors allowed.  I am in love with this place but know that my real home is in heaven.  With all of you.

May you be richly blessed and may God watch over you, in Jesus’ name, Amen.

Homeless Living Situation Is On The Rise, Why Is It Allowed?

man sitting beside wallDowntown homelessness.

Everywhere you look these days it seems that you see the characters who look unkempt, who are talking to themselves, who are begging with a sign that says they are homeless and need help, who push shopping carts full of their stuff, who are flat out asleep on a park bench.

This is a major and federal issue; more people cannot afford the cost of housing, the rent keeps growing higher and the jobs aren’t plentiful that pay for these high rents. More and more people are living in cars, tents, or in areas of brush and trees, or under highways. More people complain about needles used to shoot heroin left on sidewalks or in parks where their children play. More people are seeing active drug users shooting up heroin or meth, drug cocktails, right out in the open.

This is causing businesses to lose revenue, whose customers don’t feel safe coming into their stores, who pay more and can’t afford the cost of paying anyone to work full-time, because they can no longer afford to cover benefits. The spiral continues and the government does nothing.

Nothing, that is, that makes a dent in these issues; many that stem from the drug use of these people that can’t find jobs, or have mental health problems, who can’t afford to pay for mandated medical coverage or who don’t know the ropes to get indigent medical coverage which costs nothing, but filling out their applications. They might find drug treatment that they would get coverage for due to the fact that they are homeless, earning no income, or possibly they get disability benefits or social security income for their retirement.

They ought to make it mandatory that people cannot be homeless, living on the street and doing drugs.

This should be federally mandated that the United States gives homeless people a place to live, but is a housing program where they have to get clean and sober before leaving the premises.

Then they must learn to work and be productive members of society, either by doing the cleaning, cooking or some other function in this “community” in which they are given a home.

This could be an ongoing lifestyle; they can find jobs outside of the community once they’ve graduated, and can’t afford the cost of rentals in the general community so are able to pay for their homes in this mandated program, something where they still are mandated to participate in some way to live there. But it would be affordable so they could pay and get in off the streets.

These are ideas I am having prompted by the videos I have been watching about how Silicon Valley employees of Google or other high-tech companies are not able to pay the high rents in California. Living in cars has become a viable way to live, for a period of time, but let’s face it, living in a car does not make for a mentally healthy place to live. There is no running water, no indoor plumbing, no shower, no cooking or refrigeration facilities, and not much privacy or safety.

If this problem is growing like they say it is, and I’m watching all these videos that have me glued to this misery, as a Christian, more people should be working to solve this ever-growing problem. This is the harvest that must be intervened upon. These people are really suffering and government is either too stupid, or too uncaring, to stop this from happening to more of our good citizens.

Homeless Problems Could Be Resolved In A Way That Non-Believers Can’t Possibly Understand Without Being Saved Themselves

abandoned adult black and white cavalryRecently I bought a new cell phone, a Samsung Galaxy S10 that has beautiful photo ability and more clarity in videos.  I’ve often wondered how I can serve the Lord using my gifts; writing, speaking, helping and having empathy for people who are suffering.

YouTube has been a gold mine of videos about homelessness in the Seattle, Portland and Los Angeles.  My heart goes out to those people who are out on the sidewalk in tent cities.  These people are actually living in squalor and are easily ignored.  Who has the resources to help these people?

AS I’ve watched informational videos – excellent documentaries by news agencies – my thoughts have been stimulated to wonder at how much of a need there is for those people to know Jesus Christ.

How much stronger they may be if they had the power of the Holy Spirit to strengthen and guide them; and how much happier they would be to know that there is their loving Creator, the One True God, waiting with open arms for them to reach out to seek him.

How rewarding it would be if a government agency would look at this – allowing Christian complexes who would help give them a help hand, providing a temporary space for them to live and shower, eat and be taken to doctor’s appointments – while they get on their feet?

All it would take is to have some strong believers in the Lord Jesus Christ to set up a housing program, much like Christian shelters, that ran on private donations.  Having federal funds to show people the way to Christ, where He can work from the inside of a person to make them whole and spiritually healed, is the best way to help someone, in whatever state of life they are in.

As a Christian who was formerly homeless in earlier times, but who did not know God then, I can tell you that I am strong, being healed from the inside from traumatic experiences I’ve survived and have been given a sound mind through the pain and agony of my own earlier suffering.

A heart for helping is what I know the Lord Jesus Christ has gifted me with, and helping the poor pleases Our Lord.

I may want to get involved in a Christian program where the people are helped in a way to give them help getting back up on their feet.

I Use My Education To Punch Holes In My Education, And God Is Real

Be careful, this is real:  The Church Exposed: Kundalini Awakening Pt. 3  This shows involuntary movements of people who have come under spiritual powers that are very real but are not of God, Christ Jesus. 

Father, I pray that everyone who reads this blog will be protected by You, that we learn to recognize forces of evil and fight the evil that comes against us in the spiritual realm.  We read and believe Your Holy Word that you have provided for us to learn about the truth of Your Son, Jesus Christ, and we thank you that you have given us a way to come back to the belief in You.  I pray that we are given a way to face the evil times we are in.  I ask that you show us the reality of the sin in life and protect us in our daily walk with Jesus Christ.  We love you and thank you for blessing us by the gift of our Blessed Hope and your Son, Jesus Christ.  Amen.


Spirituality: The Highest Level Of Intensity & Involvement Photo from the Isha Foundation:  https://www.facebook.com/watch/?v=573185903181100  – “As there is a science and technology to create external wellbeing, there is a whole dimension of science and technology for inner wellbeing.” – Sadhguru

A yoga master tells us that in order to “be spiritual”, we need to live “intensely”, and be “involved” in life.  What does “living intensely” mean?  How do you “live intensely”?  It seems to be that it is up to your understanding of god as to what it means to “live intensely”.  

Does “living intensely” mean living very emotionally?  It may not be a good idea to live intensely, having strong emotions.  Having strong emotions can make things seem intense and affect our behaviors so that we react overbearingly to some situation.  My guess is as good as yours as to what “living intensely” means.

This yoga master called Sadhguru talks in a video about “exploring the nature of your existence”.  Again, what does “the nature of your existence” mean?  Is he talking to believers of The Big Bang theory?  Who is he talking to?  Is he talking to people who believe in reincarnation?  Why would someone need to explore ‘the nature’ of their existence?  He is telling us that he has no knowledge of Christ Jesus and how we are creations of God in Heaven.  He is on a trek to nowhere unless you think that being inhabited by evil spirits will keep you safe and inform you that God exists, but only the One True Living God is the Creator of the Universe, and everything beyond.

These non-believers are lost without the Truth about Jesus Christ.  They don’t know the way to health, to having a sound mind, nor the Truth about God.  It is sadly their reality that they have given themselves up to the spirits that be; anything that gives them a spiritual experience.  We know how dangerous that is.

Sadhguru goes on to ask, “If life matters, how can you not explore the whole depth and dimension of who you are?”  What in the world is he talking about?  He is a man exploring his own knowledge of mankind, and he will keep guessing about that, and expounding on non-seniscal man-made explanations about his life on the planet and beyond, assuming he believes in an afterlife.  An afterlife that will be unpleasant and punishing.  You see, he has no answers but to tell you that you must live in a way that is not even described in a way that can make sense to a Christian who is in their right mind.   He explains that living intensely and being involved; “that is what the spiritual process is”, which he repeated several times. 

That’s a sad lack of understanding, and guessing at something on his part as an explanation for becoming spiritually elevated, to make someone special like he is, I guess.  He does wear a special robe and a turbine, after all.  It must make him a spiritual master much like the rabbis in Jesus’s time, who liked to wear especially long tassels or something on their robes in order to appear more knowledgeable than everyone else.  That’s pride, isn’t it?  It’s what Jesus warned about.

It seems to me that he is talking about evading the truth of mankind and how we got her on earth.  We didn’t start out as amoebas that evolved over millions and billions of years.  That is too much to believe.  There had to be a Creator to make sense of why we are on earth and how the earth was made and what happens to us after we die here on earth.  I used to wonder why mankind had so many years on earth to live, and learn so much until we had some wisdom, and then we died.  What was all that for?  Those were the days where I experimented in all kinds of fascinating beliefs, from Zen, Buddhism, Yoga mantras, reading auras, and some Hinduism, among some practices I got involved in as a non-believer.

To say you must live intensely sounds like a nonsensical coping mechanism when trying to overcome a concocted, limited view of life.  Life can seem senseless and without meaning, and end in a scary end.  The body dies and no one feels good about that, so I believe that the unbeliever’s response to that thought of their physical death and having a limited life here on earth is to come up with a plethora of beliefs that explain how they  can add extra meaning to life, and perhaps never die.  The need to believe in spiritual forces of some kind is a dangerous way to give up one’s life to whatever is out there – to believe existentially – whatever suits you is the truth about life and death.

Existentialism is;

the view that humans define their own meaning in life, and try to make rational decisions despite existing in an irrational universe.” – The Basics of Philosophy

I believe that God created us for our existence, to pray to him and worship him, and to know who He is.  Our Father is who created us, and is living and seated on the throne in heaven and I have no doubt about that.  He is the reason we all exist.  Without Him, no one would have been born.  We don’t understand the realm of Heaven since we are created as finite beings, and we cannot raise ourselves up from the dead, nor transfix our bodies to be up in Heaven.  That will come later, through Jesus Christ.

We know through the bible that demons live through us if we are unsaved people.  Being saved means that we have a saving knowledge through reading the bible and prayer that we have been given the Holy Spirit and will be raised up to Heaven one day to escape the perilous times called “the tribulation” in the bible.  The world will be a really bad place to live by then, and many believers by that time, will be slaughtered. 

I pray that more people reading this may come to know Christ Jesus and know it in theirs hearts that He is the living God, seated in Heaven on the right side of Our Father.  Saved means we are saved from eternal damnation; we live with Christ’s Holy Spirit, we have been forgiven of our sins since we have a sincere belief and faith in the Lord Jesus Christ who died on the Cross at Calvary for our sins so that we don’t have to pay the penalty of our sin.  We fell in our natures through Eve when she took that bite of the fruit of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil.  We were born into sin because of this – it changed us forever.  Christ is the only way we may be forgiven and washed clean from our sins.  Believe me, when we do not call upon the Lord Jesus Christ, we become even more sinful.  We become lustful, prideful and angry.  We cheat and steal, become sexually perverse, and murderous.  It will not be a pleasant world before too long.  This is all told prophetically throughout the bible.

The bible tells us that a third of the angels went against God and so were cast out of Heaven, and they create their destruction upon humans, and work to separate people from God.   They do not want people to be saved through Christ Jesus.  They work against this.   These demons and their sinful natures, along with man’s prideful natures which are full of evil, are why the world is falling so badly into moral decay.   What is good has become bad, and what is bad has become good (Isaiah 5:20).  That is why.  A great page to read about the fallen angels is at All About, found at this link:  https://www.allaboutgod.com/fallen-angels-faq.htm

But here we see that Sadhguru has his own meanings of life which he will teach in an upcoming workshop:

Inner Engineering is an opportunity to engineer an inner transformation that deepens your perception… from Isha Yoga

His website explains how to live a meaningless and dangerous way of life.  We know that practicing yoga brings about evil spiritual warfare that takes hold of people’s bodies and there have been many videos depicting involuntary “kriya movements” of yogic practices. 

Kriya refers to a set of practices, mainly breath control techniques and exercises, that are practiced to achieve a specific outcome. The word is a Sanskrit term that means “completed action.” – Yogapedia

I have heard, and I do also believe, as many Christians do, that yoga is a way to connect with the evil spirits that may want to come into a person’s body.  I have seen videos about the involuntary movements caused from kiryas, like the video that is posted at the top of this blog post. 

In an announcement of a workshop put on by Sadhguru’s Isha Yoga website, we read this:

Inner Engineering is an opportunity to engineer an inner transformation that deepens your perception …. from Isha Yoga

Imagine all the people attending the workshops that Sadhguru and other’s teach; what they are opening themselves up to, instead of knowing the Living God, the Lord Jesus Christ.  Imagine their eternity spent in the most painful existence once they die.  To believe in going to “a higher dimension” in life sounds like a lie from the pit of hell.  It is, in fact, the lies of Satan who promote this type of thinking that takes mankind away from the saving knowledge of God.  They will not be saved; they will spend eternity in punishment away from God.

Yoga means that which takes you to a higher dimension or higher perception of life. Yoga is a holistic approach that encompasses overall human wellbeing; body, mind, emotions and energy.

Inner Engineering offers a comprehensive process to align your body, mind, emotions and energy. The course includes a daily practice called Shambhavi Mahamudra Kriya, also known as Shambhavi Kriya. Shambhavi Kriya is a simple, but transformative practice which brings about immense physical and psychological benefits, and much more. – from  https://www.innerengineering.com/ieo-new/benefits/ 

What I see happening in these spiritual methods is that people’s minds are used by spirits.  I see people’s trance like stares at me sometimes that gives me the creeps.  It seems that evil spirits inhabit the minds of some people where I notice they seem less and less intelligent.  They seem to become incapable of doing for themselves – they become helpless, unable to help themselves and addicted to other people, who they plan will help them.  It is a way to drain people – such as myself.  They seem to not have the brains to figure the simplest things out. 

For example, in the grocery store I have been approached quite a few times, with people asking; “Do you work here?”  Why don’t these people see that I am a customer like they are and have the ability to ask a clerk in the store their questions about products they want to buy.  I get approached too often with people like this.  I feel it is a way to get me to “caretake” adults who should be able to navigate these questions for themselves.  It serves to irritate, drain and bother my day.

These spirits delve into our personal lives to destroy us from within.  We know as Christians that we have spirituals experiences, but most of these tricksters who operate on our minds and bodies – who turn people against us and cause us harm – are evil intruders who lurk in spiritual realms we are not capable of discerning – not truly.  We don’t have the ability to protect our lives in this evil world we are living in, which is why we need the protection of the Lord Jesus Christ.  He is the only way to survive – this world, and live beyond through eternity with him. 

In the Garden of Eden where Adam and Eve did not obey the words of God, to not eat from the fruit of the tree of knowledge of good and evil, we became sinners.  Our nature’s became sinful – not wanting to allow God to be the Father of our lives.  We did not honor and worship him, we created a life of hell.  We needed Christ Jesus back then, but were given a second chance through Christ Jesus to return to the fold.  I pray anyone reading this will come to a saving knowledge of Christ Jesus and will seek who he is.  It is not hard to know Jesus.  The bible tells us;

Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye. shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you: For every one that asketh receiveth; and he that seeketh. findeth; and to him that knocketh it shall be opened. – Matthew 7:7-8

God Loves You; He Cares

You are suffering.

It’s been a long, exhausting road and you want help to lift the burdens you’ve been carrying off of your back. You just want relief and to know someone cares.

Do you know who Jesus is?

Jesus is the risen Christ – Our Lord, who went to the cross at Calvary and died for us; for the sins of our lives.

He took that death, overcame it to show us that He loves us, by taking our sin upon himself, so that you and I can be saved.

Saved in this context means that our souls will be forever in Heaven, and not with Satan, forever, who is going to be eternally destroyed. He did not obey Our Lord Jesus Christ. He became prideful, as man did, and became a midget god. He became as God, but only in his midget mind.

He wanted God to think he was special, kind of like a man who is self-defeating and thinks he knows everything. This is why self-defeating is a good way to describe these people. Stiff-necked, is how men have been described in the bible.

Father in the bible, we know we are not really going to understand all that you do. We trust you as the creator of mankind, so that you know us better than we know ourselves.

We love you Father just as Your Son Jesus does and did, when He walked our planet, teaching the people.

Thank you for giving mankind a way to be redeemed, and to come back to you.

In Jesus’ Name. Amen and Amen.

I pray for your lives, my brothers and sisters.