About Suzanne

Formerly a Mental Health Clinician, I have changed my thoughts about the mental health industry. This blog is about my Christian view of things, including the psychology of mankind.

Bible Version Controversy and the Story of the Stirring Of Water In Bethesda Pool

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Photo:  The Bethesda Pool, from Bible History Daily https://www.biblicalarchaeology.org/

A bible story came to mind a few days ago and I wondered about it.  The story was about the pool of Bethesda, where supposedly an angel of the Lord came and stirred the water in this pool where large numbers of invalids would lie, wanting to be healed of their maladies.

The story goes that when the angel of the Lord stirred this pool of water, whoever got into the water first would then be healed.

Upon further reading of John MacArthur’s study bible which is an English Standard Version, I see that the end of verse 3 and all of verse 4 in John 5 is omitted. 

3b and they waited for the moving of the waters.   From time to time an angel of the Lord would come down and stir up the waters. The first one into the pool after each such disturbance would be cured of whatever disease he had.” (5:3b-4)

MacArthur’s notes reflect that this portion of text was not found in earliest holy scriptures and may have been added later.  A blog page confirms that verse 4 was added so that the reader would better understand the superstition of the angel troubling the water.  However, the water could have been moving due to bubbling up of a spring entering into the pool. 

It goes to show what a true reading of the bible can do: in this case one might think that the Lord mercilessly plays with those that are ill, watching to see which invalid would crawl to the water the fastest and throw themselves in, but we know that is not the true character of Jesus Christ.  Why would He do all that?  This folklore may have reflected the people’s false teachings of the day and reflected the common knowledge of pagan gods.

In any case, it is wise to know what version of the bible you are reading in case the text is different from one bible to another.  We shouldn’t be reading added text from what a scribe interprets the scripture wto be saying.  In this partial text that was added to the bible, we are given exposure to the belief in the darkness of pagan gods.

In this story, when Jesus comes upon the invalid we come to what Jesus directly said to the man.  We see that the man had been an invalid for thirty-eight years, and we come to the divine knowledge of Jesus who knew he had already been there a long time, who asked him, “Do you want to be healed?”.  No teasing an invalid there, but a direct, observational question.  This miracle was performed on the Sabbath against rabbinical law which forbade man from working in any capacity on the Sabbath.  MacArthur’s notes describe how Jesus may have picked healing on the Sabbath to be in direct confrontation with these rabbis who practiced their religious hypocrisy, such as their being against anyone’s doing good on the Sabbath.

Compare this with the added text that distracts us from the behavior of Jesus and what he said.  What would the need be to add the text so that the reader understood the superstitious beliefs of that day?  I like how the story cuts to the chase.  After all, it shows the invalid has ideas that didn’t make sense in the original scripture’s version, that the water needed to be stirred so that the first man to get into the pool would be healed.  No explanation was given in the scripture making all the more obvious of this man’s need to be healed in the physical realm and the mental.

The man’s response to Jesus continues to tell us that the man had something wrong in that he did not gratefully answer “yes, I want to be healed!” and he did not seem to know who Jesus was by what’s found in the story.

Different versions of the bible should be explored as you walk with Christ since verses have been found to have been removed or added, and sometimes verses are found to be in direct opposition to each other from one version to the next.

Troubling Times Ahead: Is “Hearing Voices” A Symptom Of Mental Illness?

brain control demonicI came upon a Christian video today that brought attention to a topic which I have studied in the past: psycho-electronic weapons, or electromagnetic weapons as they have been called in the past.

Radio waves can be directed into a person’s skull, as in “Voice To Skull” weapons used in years past in wars in the Middle East making people believe “Allah” was talking to them.

These are invisible frequency waves that cannot be seen with the human eye but does not mean that they do not exist.  Other weapons can be used to make a person have a heart-attack and kill them, which has been publicized over a decade ago that could be found through general searches online.  I wonder how many links to these kinds of articles are buried, or have been deleted, via Google?

The video I watched starts out by saying that people are already given special numbers in India, through the Aadharr, a bio-metric identification registration program, that they must have in order to have bank accounts, and get paid.  Will this be the early stages of the worldwide Mark of the Beast?  Christians in India have refused to be registered into this system.  One example was of a student not able to attend college due to not registering on Christian principles.

The video was uploaded last year and many of the technologies they are talking about that controls the human body and mind have been around for decades that some in the mainstream public have found out about a long time ago.  They are branded as being “mentally ill” and dismissed by their doctors who know nothing about these technologies.

I invite my readers to watch the video at the link provided and then send up your prayers for all the people in the world that are being affected by these horrifying, weapons of restraint and destruction.

Watch “The Mark of the Beast System Takes Over India” on YouTube

Coping With Boundary Violations: Be The Church



Proverbs 18:13-17 English Standard Version (ESV)

13 If one gives an answer before he hears,
    it is his folly and shame.
14 A man’s spirit will endure sickness,
    but a crushed spirit who can bear?
15 An intelligent heart acquires knowledge,
    and the ear of the wise seeks knowledge.
16 A man’s gift makes room for him
    and brings him before the great.
17 The one who states his case first seems right,
    until the other comes and examines him.


Coping is something I’ve had to do a lot of lately.  In this world today it seems that more and more people are taking the broad highway, not listening and taking up space that is not theirs.  What I mean is that people seem to be dominating the space of others; in terms of physical space, “air” space, theological space and communication space.  These spaces all take boundaries away from others if used wrongly.

Some examples of physical space boundaries are: driving in lanes on our roadways where some might cut you off; they seem to be not looking.  Like in a parking lot when people put their cars in reverse and hit the gas without looking behind them, first.  Or pulling out of parking lots in front of other drivers who hit the brakes with people driving but not looking.  Touching a briefcase on your table at the library where you’re working, having to stare into your eyes while you look at them wondering, “what are you doing touching my briefcase and stopping at my table?”   Or, how about being at the local YMCA and having ladies want the gazes of people they wander up to stand by, looking at themselves in the mirror, totally naked?  Or wiping their hair dry with a towel for 20 minutes while walking around the locker room, looking for someone to give eye contact to them?  This seems highly uncomfortable – exebitionism is on the rise, folks.

What I mean by “air” space is the talkers, they talk and talk and talk so loudly you can’t help but notice them.  They seem to want to get noticed and talk overly loudly and for a long time in places where people are sitting quietly, waiting in line at a doctor’s office, or anywhere there is a public place for them to see and be seen.  It is annoying while working in an office space and these air space intruders want to talk their heads off right when you want to talk to someone else on the phone or in person; they are interruptive in their demeanor.  Have I been living in a cave all these years and don’t know what’s going on – or has this gotten worse?

Theological space is a good one to talk about, being that mostly Christians read this blog, I am assuming at least.  They want to talk to you about all the wrongful teaching you do, and you have to speak out in incomprehensible “tongues” to be baptized in the spirit, or fall on the floor to allow the Spirit of God to “move” in you.  I hate to offend others but this is just something I will never get used to nor believe. 

The New Apostolic Reformation (NAR) is a new-wave group, that I associate with Hillsong’s Church – the crazy wave of new age believers who are sucked into this broad highway of belief, unfortunately.  They impose their beliefs on people rather than be like the Bereans, studying their bibles and really learning the way – of Christ, why he died and rose, and that we are all born in sin and need Jesus Christ desperately, to cleanse us, save us from being damned to hell, and in order that we may live for eternity with Him, through His Holy power.  I’m rambling now, a little peeved at a Christian who is not listening to my comment about a video he posted… that’s another story and not appropriate for this post.

Communication space is something I’ve had problems with all my life; I am not heard, discounted, and made invisible when I’ve talked about anything.  Constantly turned aside from, my opinions and methods of speech are too meek, or non-aggressive I believe.  I have learned not to speak to people who I determine will not listen nor understand – why debate man who has no knowledge of God?  Some may feel we have to correct someone’s beliefs, and that’s okay if they feel that way.

I feel led to write this blog awaiting for what God may bring my way and not imposition others with my beliefs.  If they do not ask I do not bring it up.

Recompense to no man evil for evil. Provide things honest in the sight of all men.  If it be possible, as much as lieth in you, live peaceably with all men.- Romans 12:17-18

After watching several “street preacher” videos, I am still convinced that people will come to the Lord if and when he chooses to reach them, and it’s not my duty to stir up an audience of mad people you try to convince of their sin.  They usually do not understand and just want to argue and say they are right.  It’s like arguing with mad dogs, and that does no good when you are used as a vessel to bring the Good News of Jesus’ saving grace to them.  Only if they are ready to hear can they hear.  

It only emboldens these aggressive people who aim to take my space in life; I think they are filled with satan or unclean spirits.  Whatever you want to call them they are unclean, ungodly and not wanting anything to do with God’s wrath.  These could also be the people that I write about in my new article today, where I talk about people who get voices directed remotely into their heads.  I’m not joking – the technology has been around that I know for the past two or three decades that it’s been public.  That explains why they are so hard to deal with; by abiding in the Father of lies they are not prone to accepting the gospel of Christ and that is why, I think now, that I have always wanted to talk when I was a small child, but had been severely oppressed while I grew up.

Being raised in an unChristian family, who called themselves “atheists”, it has been a hard road for me – not knowing why strange things happened to me all the time – why I had been treated poorly.  I know a lot of you have probably had similar, bad experiences in life and I’m sorry for your painful lives.  We can start each day giving God thanks, and thanking him, Jesus Christ, for our lives today.

Others may be living in lives of sin, knowledgeable of the Son of God, Jesus Christ, and their Father who loves them, and may never be given the Holy Spirit to endwell within their hearts and minds.

For the grace of God that bringeth salvation hath appeared to all men,

Teaching us that, denying ungodliness and worldly lusts, we should live soberly, righteously, and godly, in this present world;

Looking for that blessed hope, and the glorious appearing of the great God and our Saviour Jesus Christ; – Titus 2:11-13

It is a life to endure; knowing that Jesus is coming soon to bring us up in the air with him, His Bride.

That he might present it to himself a glorious church, not having spot, or wrinkle, or any such thing; but that it should be holy and without blemish. – Ephesians 5:27

Let’s be without spot or wrinkle, prepared and ready to lead lives with the Blessed Hope.

Snow Starting Today In The Bellevue, Washington Area Again!

Today is snowing and the birds are out on the lawn picking for insects and whatever they pick at!  They do not fear snow, but the Bellevue area – close to Seattle – freaks out with only 1″ – 2″ of snow!  My goodness, the library is closing early at 1:30 PM, and the YMCA will also close early and not be open on Saturday either! 

The Seattle area is not prepared to deal with much snow although I’ve seen salt trucks and plows at the ready around town!  They must have learned something over the past few days earlier this week when traffic was stuck all over the place due to the snow!  But this is nothing compared to the midwest and on the east coast!

After praying and fasting for a few days I just got a breakthrough, a job starting on Monday!  However it is only a two-week position, but my feeling is that the Lord is listening and won’t ever let me down!  

Pray today that you are kept close to your Lord and Savior Jesus Christ!  Amen!

Here is what it’s looking like near Bellevue, Washington state today!  

I pray that everyone is safe and keeps warm through these wintery, cold days!


Changing Through Fasting And Prayer

Thou art my hiding place; thou shalt preserve me from trouble; thou shalt compass me about with songs of deliverance. Selah. – Psalms 32:7

doveIt seemed to me today to go through with a day’s fast; one I’d planned for a few days but was not ready until today.  I think when you get to a place where you want to fast it is best to be mentally prepared and yield yourself to the purification of the fast, knowing that you want to come close to God, and ask for His help.  I do want His help and guidance on my life today.

This may seem strange but I had to quit a job, a really good one due to the fact that an employee stole my little purse with my wallet in it and no one seemed to bother with asking the details about what happened.

I have since forgiven the employee; and have given the situation to God.  I had wanted to try and make it work but there are boundaries that are meant to be kept for God’s people, in my belief, of civility and safety.  We are to be wise as serpents and meek as doves (Matthew 10:16).

So after days of my stomach feeling anxiety whenever I went to that building to go to work, something kept telling me that it wasn’t good for me to be there, to stay away and get away from the beast.

At least that’s what it seemed like, the message I got in my spirit.  It was a sick, evil demon who wanted me to lose my job and lose my income, and the Lord intervened, I believe.  I went in one last time and talked with my call center manager who has a doctorate degree in psychology and who is a licensed therapist.

She said that she “didn’t know I felt that way” about working there having my wallet stolen, and the employee following me around keeping tabs on me often, that I felt uncomfortable – ill at ease.  She didn’t ask any more questions, just telling me that my performance was not high enough, and special training would be needed, otherwise I would not be able to take the crisis calls we sometimes would get.

Now don’t get me wrong, I have taken crisis calls before in my life and knew what to do; only I was feeling ill at ease because someone sat two cubicles behind me, waiting and watching to monitor my whereabouts, who I talked to and other such behaviors.  It sent my world into an unsafe, dark place.  This distracted me, and I found myself planning how to address the next situation I knew I would find myself in with this person bothering me rather than keeping my mind on my work.

Now today I have fasted up until dinner time, praying on and off all day, waiting on the Lord to tell me what I should be doing about income.  I feel he is the one who protected my life, and in the uncertainty of not knowing what that employee would do to me, he felt it best I leave that job.  I’ve had experience when another employee years ago tried to subterfuge my career in a job I would not have left, but it is my belief that some angel(s) spoke to me about leaving that job too.  It was not a safe place to be.

I don’t know if any of you ever experienced a spirit who led you out of darkness to a new path, believing you are only capable of being vulnerable to terrible people and being led into a self-regarding, person of integrity, who wants to be treated civilly.  The victimhood that I experienced growing up has been changing slowly, with reading the Word of God and through prayer and fasting.  I am a new person today and I trust God completely.

My message today is that if we are Christians, and baby Christians walking with Christ Jesus, we need to see how we are to plan for life, being in these crazy times ahead.  We know that we are in the “Last Days” of the bible, even the last hour and even the last minutes of the time clock when we will be raptured out of here to the safe, loving arms of our Savior, Jesus Christ.  It’s waiting it out that’s become a challenge, with having to pay the bills and seeking a safe place to live for the remaining time we have here on earth.

I urge you, my dear readers, to turn to who you can believe in and trust with your very being.  A life pleasing to Christ Jesus is that we trust Him completely.  He wouldn’t have it any other way for his people; his bride.

Like or comment on this blog post to receive prayer for you each day while I continue to set up a conference call for others like me who enjoy safe fellowship, prayer and sharing our lives.  Today’s churches are not safe spaces for all of us who are already believers; they seem to have become watered-down vessels for the world and are not shepherding in the new believers in Christ who need comfort, fellowship, and guides in the Word of God.

Prayer To Fight Sin And Evil Of The World

brown wooden crossFather, please help us, we are wayward in sin.  We need you to guide us, for we are the ONLY line of defense to hold back the works of the devil  in your world. Lord, we know that people don’t know what the world’s population is up against, they are unsaved, knowledgeable about YOU.  YOU are the Savior of the world.  YOU are the only person that can save us from our sinful natures.  We rely upon YOU to help us grow and walk with you – to help others know you and to guide them into safe shelter.  YOU are the Mighty Tower to protect us and save us from SIN.  Lord, please help us to prevent the demonic warfare harming the world and pulling your people down into their sin.  Show us how to pull down the strongholds that keep people beholden to the devil, and help them to get out of their worlds of darkness, the sin, and Satan’s warfare against them.  May we pray that we stand together to be the light of the world, in Jesus Christ’s Mighty Name!  Amen.  

Temporary Office In The Library: Seeking Jesus’ Will Through Writing And Prayer

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Seeking library space for writing, prayer

As I’ve had to spend considerable time in the public library to write these blogs, I noticed something. People today seem to be out-of-bounds in how they treat others. I’ve had several people in recent days feel the need to touch my jacket or laptop briefcase sitting on a shared table in the library or dump their stuff right across from me on the table while glaring right at me. This morning as I was sitting in my car a lady came up and knocked on my window and waved at me; quite disturbing! Have you noticed these things?
What I want to talk to you today about is how I’ve spent the morning looking for a new job at the library. It occurred to me that there are conference rooms that I may sign up for to get privacy, and quiet. Libraries are not quiet these days – in fact they remind me of community centers where people take phone calls, talk in groups, tutor children, and have become quiet noisy! I remember the days when libraries were very quiet! Not so, today!
So today I found an unused conference room, after praying about this from last week; I needed an office space to write in and seek a new job from but I didn’t want to have to pay for a shared office space. I’ve looked at those companies where you pay a year for a shared office. You can build a private counseling practice or meet with clients you do financial coaching with and things like that, and where there is a lobby with a receptionist who answers the phone, takes messages, and processes mail!
I thought about doing this one day to keep in step with everyone else who is starting a new business but I didn’t want to have to pay for the $700.00 per year rent. Here is one space I thought about last month, as an example of a rented office space in my local area: Thinkspace rental offices, Redmond, WA.
Instead of paying for an office, I thought I would make a list of all the libraries in my local area where I could reserve a conference room, also called “study rooms” by the libraries here in King County, Washington. Today I got one because I waited outside the room, seeing it had been reserved, but no one showed up. The rule states that if the person is not in the room after 10 minutes, anyone else can reserve and use the room. I’m in the conference room now; my ideas are running madly, how I love to be alone and think with Christ in my daily journey! He is the best friend one could have and I encourage you to renew your faith in Him, in case you have slipped away from Him. Take him with you wherever you go – feel the peace and joy of the Lord Jesus Christ and enjoy this day!
May God be with you, in Christ Jesus.

Conference Calls: To Help You Grow Your Faith Walk With Jesus Christ

The new website is slowly coming along as I learn to use WordPress.  Plug-ins don’t always work, or I can’t get them installed, and on the right pages, so you see it’s taken some time to get this website off the ground.

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New Launch!

If you’re like me, working in a community sounds fun – I have done this in the past in other bible groups I’ve participated in.  

One group had participants study bible scripture that was brought up in the pastor’s sermon.  We reviewed the notes the group leader took and discussed what they meant and helped strengthen our faith.  I don’t know what software they used, but you could raise your hand in the group to show you had a question; there was a space on the interface where people could be allowed to text message each other, and the person would speak about what the message meant to their lives.

Other groups I’ve joined were the same; participating with a main group leader who called upon people who read Scripture, talking about themselves and what they had done for God during the week.  That particular group was a bible healing group led by a Dominion pastor who I don’t follow now, and was a step in the challenge to find the true Word being spoken and taught – instead of giving twisted messages and false teaching.

So far I have found a free conference calling platform where I can plan a day and time, provide a phone number for people to call in, and lead a conference call.  I have begun a list of topics we could talk about and one work sheet people could use to discuss strongholds in their lives.

If you’d like to become part of a weekly or twice-weekly conference call, please let me know.  Either send me an email on the Prayer Requests tab with best days/times for you and what time zone you’re in, or put it in your comments at either site, or contact me at the Contact Us web page at the new website, Christianhope.net.

If there’s not an interest in these conference calls, maybe you could suggest what kind of contact works best for you while this is all in the beginning stages.

I pray you are blessed, I pray for each of you who like a blog post or post a comment here, and also on the new website, Christianhope.net. I pray to God to be useful to you and new believers especially who I strongly believe need to be with Christians every day to strengthen their newly found faith; and keep them on the road with Our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ, the name above all other names!

New Site: Pastors And Teachers Suggested List To Watch And Learn From

assorted hot air balloons photo during sunsetI’ve been feeling happy today while I look up all the websites I like to go to in order to learn more about Christ.

Here are a bunch of teachers and pastors I have learned from over the past few years that I’d like to recommend that are also found on Christianhope.nets web page: Goodies that you may want to check out! Finally – I’m doing something productive while I sit in the library thinking about a job I need to find.

Suggested list of pastors and teachers to watch: The following teachers and pastors are recommendations sorted into alphabetical order of people I like to listen to who you might find helpful to listen to. This is for those of you who are new, please keep watching and listening each day and stay on your path with Our Lord Jesus Christ.

  • Timothy Alberino – Timothy Alberino is an author, explorer and filmmaker with a passion for discovery and truth. His inquisitive mind and insatiable appetite for adventure have led him all over the earth on expeditions of exploration and research.
  • Eric Barger Eric Barger is the author of numerous books, including the best-seller From Rock to Rock, Entertaining Spirits Unaware: The End-Time Occult Invasion (with co-author David Benoit) and Disarming the Powers of Darkness. He has produced dozens of videos detailing various aspects of the Cults, the Occult, World Religions,Current Events, Bible Prophecy, and today’s Entertainment Industry all in the light of a biblical worldview.
  • Carter Conlon – Senior pastor of Times Square Church, an inter-denominational church in New York City, where he joined the pastoral staff in 1994 at the invitation of founding pastor David Wilkerson.
  • JD Farag – Bible prophecy pertaining to the Middle East as well as current prophetic events. In addition to his sermons he also does a weekly prophecy update.
  • Jack Hibbs – Have you listened to Jack Hibbs teach? Or watched him on TV? Well, if you have, it doesn’t take very long to figure out that Pastor Jack is passionate about life! That might be an understatement.
  • John MacArthur – John MacArthur is the pastor-teacher of Grace Community Church in Sun Valley, California, as well as an author, conference speaker, president of The Master’s University and Seminary, and featured teacher with the Grace to You media ministry.
  • Jan Markell – Our purpose is to help people understand the times according to the Bible, contend for the faith in Jesus Christ, and help the Church stand against deception as watchmen on the wall in these last days!
  • LA Marzulli – Author, speaker and lecturer. L.A. Marzulli takes a in depth look at the Bible, nephilim, aliens, angels and Biblical prophecies.
  • Justin Peters – Justin Peters Ministries exists to preach the Gospel of Jesus Christ to the lost and to help equip the saved to “speak the truth in love” – Ephesians 4:15
  • Dr. Charles Stanley – Charles F. Stanley is the founder of In Touch Ministries and a New York Times best-selling author. While his teaching is transmitted throughout the world to millions of people, Dr. Stanley has been said to demonstrate a practical, keen awareness of people’s needs and provide Christ-centered, biblically-based principles for everyday life.
  • Amir Tsarfati – Behold Israel is a non-profit organization. Our mission is to provide reliable and accurate reporting on developments in Israel and the region.
  • Gary Stearman – Prophecy Watchers is a weekly television program, email newsletter and online bookstore hosted by Bible Prophecy expert Gary Stearman.
  • Watchman On The Wall 88 – This channel, Watchman On The Wall 88 (YouTube) has weekly Bible Prophecy Updates as well as other encouraging videos to alert people to the times we are living in.
  • David Wood – “The God who made the world and everything in it is the Lord of heaven and earth and does not live in temples built by human hands. And he is not served by human hands, as if he needed anything. Rather, he himself gives everyone life and breath and everything else.” ~Acts 17:24-25

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