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Living In A Car Camp As A Christian

My home is my van.  People like me are known as “van dwellers”, and I park at night in a parking lot near the greater Seattle area.   People are allowed to park in a parking lot of a church on what is known as the “East Side”, near Seattle.  It is on the east side of Washington Lake, the big lake to the east of Seattle.  The church is located in the city of Kirkland, near Redmond, close to the 405 freeway.   If you look at the map below you can see the city called “Kingsgate” where I hide out a lot in the library, because it’s the best one between Kingsgate and the built-up city of Bellevue, where Bill Gates’ major MicroSoft campus is.

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There are three or four more “safe car parking camps” that I am aware of in the state of Washington.  The Mayor of Seattle, the one who is being accused of being a former pedophile, made an issue of the homeless crisis a few years back, when he tried to open safe car camps for the homeless, but I don’t know what happened to the ones he was opening.  They are not available, but he did go on and try and open emergency crisis shelters, to help get the homeless off the streets.  I think the temporary beds were added during some winter months but I’m not sure if they still are, now.

I’m not one for talking much when I’m not sure I want to know someone.  I’m not sure I would want to meet the people who camp at the car camp like me.  They are a rag-tag looking bunch who seem to not move their cars, who stay there all day and never move on. A few have plastic lawn chairs they put out and sit on while they smoke in the smoking area.  People must be on disability or receive some sort of assistance, so they stay and stay and stay.  The car camp I stay at has no limit to the time you are allowed to live there, in the parking lot.  You just can’t pitch a tent, and no RV’s are allowed.  They need us to move out on Sunday so they can have their regular church-goers park, in time for church at 9:00 am, I believe.  They like us out early and I never stay around to see if everyone actually moves their cars or not.  We are told to park them on the street until 1:00 pm Sunday after church activities are over.

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Everest Park, Kirkland WA. Photo: sleboeuf @ christianview.blog

I thought about why I’m here. Born and raised in California, I migrated to the midwest, after a child was born that I really didn’t know.  Her father battered me and I got away from him, and spent many long years alone, fighting to protect my only daughter who doesn’t know me today.  Was it worth it?  I guess when you’re trying to mother a child that wants her mother but the father keeps interfering in a custody battle he must win, in order to retaliate to the mother for wanting to leave him because he was violent, among other things, it was an attempt to get my child to safety; my safety.  

I went to court several times without a lawyer, and that was key at the time.  They didn’t recognize us parents who went to court without an attorney.  I joined groups to help me write the legal documents I would need because I had no money to pay for an attorney, and attorney’s aren’t good at protecting children in the first place.  They don’t get the concept and they don’t do the work to help a parent trying to escape domestic violence.  I went to a shelter with my child but it didn’t last long and she was lost to the father who had been friends with the attorney who frauded the documents making it look like I signed away full and sole custody of my daughter.  Of course that wasn’t the truth; he just made it all seem that way.  Without getting into all the details, it was a horrid life.

The long and the short of it was that as I came to realize I was alone in life, the family who I’d grown up with did not support me, really, I did know I had a god of my understanding from my 12-Step program I was part of for many years.  It was not the real God of Jesus Christ.  It was where I began saying the Lord’s prayer without feeling angry.  It was a starting point for me to begin to accept there may be a true god, but I was not at a point of knowing God.  As an atheist then, I was respectful of the Christians and I did not fight against what they had to say if they mentioned anything Christian.  That’s more than what a lot of people get as far as respect today if they are Christians.  It seems there is so much hate and blame directed at believers, but that’s for another blog post.

I went through two or three churches trying to gain strength over many years, and winding up in the midwest was a hard step for me.  I had gone through churches where I had no understanding about what they teach: some were speaking in tongues churches where I fell to the ground quite a few times not knowing what was happening to me. Some might say I had been “slain in the spirit” and it was all quite crazy to me.  Hence my gripe about the churches that teach those things.  I can hear the preachers now; “Glory hallelujiah, let’s all fall to the ground and begin to crawl like dogs and bite each other on the necks!”, laughing like hyenas and saying the spirit really is really heavy on poeple tonight, or something like that.  I didn’t go to that extent, but I did fall a few times, more than a few, and I didn’t know what it was all about.  Nor do I want to know.  That’s just an example of what I went through in churches in years past, before I really knew God.

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From “A Call for Discernment Session 2 – Mangled Manifestations”, a teaching by Justin Peters, found at: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_Glmjrd5XtE

The way to God is not through magical experiences where you may be afraid, but through the continual, consistent, reading of the Word. Get some understanding about what you’re reading before believing anything you hear in church.  Church’s vary widely in what they teach and believe.  You might as well get some really good understanding by comparing what highly recommended pastors might say online.  Follow good examples by pastors who have learned; they study the word taking seriously what they teach.  They have you new converts who don’t know what to follow and don’t know who to reach out to in mind; they are carrying the Word of God with them in their hearts.

John MacArthur and Justin Peters are two good ones I can rely on to hear the truth from. They are not Word of Faith, nor Faith healers, Prosperity or Law of Attraction people. Those are not really teaching the Word of God.  They might be little gods in their doctrine, trying to impress, become more popular and want to guide you.  You must beware: there are many who want a following of the “sheeple people” who won’t study and do what it takes to learn the true gospel, and they might want to carry the flesh too far, gathering you in to the worst places, wanting your money, your recommendations, your adulation, your worship of them.  Look the Jesus Christ, the One True God; not man for guidance.  He is good and the light may shine for you through the reading of the bible.  I read the KJV; only the King James Version, for those of you who want to know.

I’m especially watchful now that I know I went through years of spiritual darkness, that had deleterious effects on my life for far too long.  I want to pursuade you to know the truth.  Stick to the truth teachers who are not far from God in their walks; they really know Him and are not teaching the wrong thing.  Otherwise, you might come under the effects of a wrong doctrine and wrong way of life.

You might never escape the clutches of Satan’s demons, who, when you want to know God, will come tear you apart.  I’m just warning you.  A sister in Christ would do no less, truthfully.

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John MacArthur’s, “For Whom Did Christ Die?” video

I heard a great teaching last night on who Christ died for.  He died for “his elect”, not for the world as has been taught for so long in churchs.  I, myself, had felt confusion because one person says to share the Word with people, and they make a decision to come to believe on the Lord Jesus Christ.  This is what I thought was the truth.  Then someone came along to burst my bubble and I learned something new.

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John MacArthur preaches, captured on YouTube at https://youtu.be/TYkkTpcmyAw uploaded by Grace To You. His website is at https://www.gty.org. Screenshot taken by sleboeuf, from his video, entitled, “For Whom Did Christ Die? (Selected Scriptures)” .

Pastor John MacArthur, in his Grace To You video entitled, “For Whom Did Christ Die?(Selected Scriptures)”, explained that God chooses people that Jesus watches over.  We are chosen.  Christ died on the cross for his chosen people’s sins, not everyone’s sins in the whole, wide world!  At about 20 minutes into the video, Pr. MacArthur starts making it clear, that Jesus did not die for the whole world.  Then at approximately 36 minutes, he shares scripture, from the book of John.  This is the one that hit me the hardest:

I pray for them: I pray not for the world, but for them which thou hast given me; for they are thine. – John 17:9 

Jesus prays for “them which thou hast given me”, and this seals the deal for me.

John MacArthur goes on to explain how we get our belief from God.  We wouldn’t be capable by our own humanity to believe in the Lord Jesus.  So this tells me that we couldn’t believe on Him, without His gift of belief, of growing our faith, of being the author and finisher of our faith, as it says in Hebrews:

Looking unto Jesus the author and finisher of our faith; who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is set down at the right hand of the throne of God. – Hebrews 12:2

So as a child while I was not told about the Lord Jesus Christ, I had no way of learning about Him, of hearing His name spoken in my household among my family members, so He cannot come to a child’s heart, when the parents don’t want Him in their home.  That is why I couldn’t believe on Him as a young child growing up, and it only was when I was harmed beyond control, that I came to God.  That I felt I needed Him, to stop me from going into a suicidal black darkness in my life.  I had enough faith to go to those 12-Step Recovery meetings, but I had no knowledge of His Word.

One way I can help others find God is to publish my thoughts on how I was conformed to His Word, and late in life, after having an atheist family to grow up in and never having the Words of the Lord Jesus Christ spoken at my home.  I missed a lot and I hope I can help someone understand Jesus better and who He really is.  

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Understanding The Lord From Sitting In The Pews

church-188087_1280With new information over time, I have come to know Jesus as my Lord and Savior who has saved me from death.  I have come through many sad times, scary times and stressful times.  After learning who the Lord Jesus Christ was, I knew I had been on the wrong path for many years before I finally Came to Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ.

Many mistakes have been made from the Word of God being changed.  He has gone through a metamorphesis many times from the strange ways people have described him throughout the years that I have heard: he “has a sense of humor” was a favorite of the 12-Step Recovery Program I spent time in, from about 1974 or 1975 through about 1993 or 1994.  I studied a lot of the literature and spoke at many meetings.  At one point I held meetings in my home, in Fairfield, California.  But this wasn’t satisfactory to me, no, not really.  I still had a deep place in my heart that had not been healed.

Before that I had gone to a spirit-filled church, or so they called themselves, where I learned what “speaking in tongues” was.  Now, I don’t believe that any more, but as a baby Christian then, if you could call it that, I needed to know more about who the Lord God was, and not the showmanship of those who yelled out strange words during a service that I didn’t understand.  It scared me back then, making me afraid.  I had no idea what that meant and I dread that this is still going on in churches today and that these strange words come out of people’s mouths to add to the confusion of what’s already out there when it comes to knowing God.  Not many are telling the truth; they are grandstanding, instead.

As a child I was taken to church maybe two times, by my grandmother on my mother’s side.  She was a Methodist.  I visited her when I was very young; I must have been four or five at the time.  Looking back, it seems I was that young, because whenever I did visit her, she didn’t say much to me and then she would take me to church where I sat quietly next to her.  Nobody explained a thing to me; a small child at such a young age who wouldn’t have understood who Jesus was or the point of the sermons.  I didn’t understand a word they said.

That is why I think it is more important than ever, that we rightly divide the Word and share it with others.  They may not be ready but we should not allow those who are wrongly saying what Jesus is or did, what He meant, or any wrong teaching publicaly especially.  I know how it is to not understand what is going on during a sermon and how you can be afraid and confused, letting Satan punish you all the more for wanting to come to Jesus.

It is a big mistake to learn those fantastical tricks of the trade, thinking you’re appearing to be special and of God, when you’re only confusing the people, teaching them wrong things, especially concerning signs and wonders, only to appear great.

Filling the pews isn’t the point.  God had a message and reason, and still has, for sending Jesus to earth who preached the gospel to the poeple.  He was not focused on seeming to appear “magical”, to do tricks for the people, but only to get them to hear the Word.  That was the point of His coming.  To hear the Word is the point.

Hearing, then believing.

So then faith cometh by hearing, and hearing by the word of God. ~ Romans 10:17

That is the orderly way He taught.  He is a God of peace and order; not confusion.

For God is not the author of confusion, but of peace, as in all churches of the saints. ~ 1 Corinthians 14:33     

I didn’t want to hear that God was a peculiar man up in the sky speaking in tongues, to add to my confusion.  I wanted to seek Him.

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Inspiring Message For You

pink flowersI was driving home one night last week and I felt an overwhelming feeling of gratitude in my heart for the Lord Jesus Christ.  It was at night and I grabbed my microphone I keep handy in my car for times such as this when I feel moved to record something to either keep, and remind myself later to do, or I have something overpowering I need to say and record it.

This was no different, and grabbing my hand-held tape recorder with a microphone that is easy to speak into, I did record something that became words, and more words, growing into a profound few seconds that I cherish.  I knew it had to be from God.  It was a profound sentence to me that hit me at a time that I needed to know God was real, and who was with me that night, a special message to me that gave me inspiration traveling as a Christian through life.  

A life of living far from home, with no one that I really knew, who might care about me living in a van, driving at night to get somewhere who might have an accident, or the car might break down, or anything could happen to me.

Here is it below, click the link, and may you find some inspiration in the short recording of the words I had been given that needed to be expressed to others.  

 

 

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A Fake Jesus Shows Himself To Be Psychotic In Nature: What Blasphemy!

ghost-156969_1280I’m a little worried about all the people I know who are misled into thinking that Jesus appears as a “cloud of smoke”, or that Jesus’ joy consists of “laughing for hours” because his joy is so strong and other “manifestations” that people report about being special to God, being of God and having that “anointing” that is so strong and powerful that they become spokesmen for a certain church or belief.

And he said unto him, If they hear not Moses and the prophets, neither will they be persuaded, though one rose from the dead. (Luke 16:31)

I wonder at how long the Lord will contain Himself, watching these ministers who spout miraculous healings, or Words of God that they receive, speaking in tongues all over the place, even teaching their flocks to “speak in tongues”?  My grief is that so many people will follow these preachers, not reading their bibles, and walking with Christ, but walking after these “signs and wonders preachers”, instead?

Won’t people be grieved to find they are not “known by God”, they have been too naive and trusting, to be led by preachers that have to have “signs and wonders” at their churches in order to prove that the Lord Jesus Christ is there?  Who do we follow, man or God?

My experiences in various false Divinity Schools has shown me that these “signs and wonders” teachers turn into leaders into the “miraculous”, that they are not followers of Christ, but of man.  Every “miracle” is not necessarily of God.  We are going down a slippery slope to believe that every “impartation, vision or sign” is automatically that of God.  Satan is a deceiver, who will lead people away from believing on the Lord Jesus Christ.  

Who needs signs and wonders to believe?  Why is it that they must preach in signs and wonders in order to prove faith?

Then said Jesus unto him, Except ye see signs and wonders, ye will not believe. (John 4:48)

Who today supplants their faith with the need to see, or experience, signs and wonders? Faith is believing, sight unseen.

Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen. (Hebrews 11:1)

I recall someone saying, the Jews needed signs and the Greeks needed logic.  How about blind faith?  You hear the word of God, and you believe?

So then faith cometh by hearing, and hearing by the word of God.  (Romans 10:17)

People are too young in the Lord to really believe Him, without resorting to “proofs”.  Keep with your faith, do not be side-tracked into thinking that Jesus will perform special magic tricks to prove you believe. 

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We cannot be turned from the truth about God, we must hold true to the bible and our faith.  God doesn’t need to show Himself in weird phenomena, He gave us his Word and that is enough.  We cannot let false teaching invade the church.  I offer a link to a message about seducing spirits by  John MacArthur.

The problem is, these false preachers lead people away from Jesus, to follow them.  They amass quite a following.

I must say it is a mental phenomena, to me, that so many would want a following so badly that they would look for signs and wonders to invade their churches, just so they can excite or impress people, grow their “flock” and maybe become famous.  

Look how many preachers seem to enjoy getting that special Word from God, thinking they are more special than others, so that they get that special message from God, and decree that you will have this or that.  I am tired of the showmanship where it is no longer about God, but about them.  These men and women of God who practice “little god” doctrines, who want all eyes to be on them, but not on the Lord Jesus Christ.  They play at being a “god”, because they want all the adulation, are self-seeking, ego-seeking and not of God.

I ask, who played at being a god, but was thrown out of heaven?

For false Christs and false prophets will appear and perform great signs and wonders that would deceive even the elect, if that were possible.  (Matthew 24:24)

I’m watching a disturbing video about how people are led to believe that Jesus is, and what he does with people.  It is very disturbing, talking about the Jesus Culture, in this particular video.  People shake, laugh for hours, see smoke in the air, and they call this a manifestation of Jesus.  They are looking for “an experience with God”, and sadly they are being misled.  They are not discerning the true Spirit of God.

Part 2: Jesus Culture – a Call for Discernment, Are you sure it’s your Jesus?

I was once part of this popular culture of spirits, of demons, really, which are the seducing spirits God talks about.  Spirits that led me to believe that I was being “slain in the spirit” for some strange reason.  Talking in tongues of gibberish, meaning nothing, not knowing I did not have to “hide” my prayers in “my prayer language”, so that Satan wold not understand what I was saying.  My prayers are heard and understood by God.  I do not need a special “prayer language” so that God knows secretly, what I am praying, so maybe this will protect my prayers from being understood by Satan.  Is Satan a threat to the Lord Jesus Christ?

All I can say is, wow.  I didn’t know we had such an unmighty, unvictorious Savior, like Christ who was raised from the dead, came back to walk the earth, and then ascend up into Heaven where he sits at the right hand of the Father.  Do I need to hide my prayers for God to be safe enough to understand them so that Satan will not hear?  When did Jesus overcome Satan, then?  Was it not the truth that Jesus has already been victorious over death, and that after a time, Satan will be no more on earth?

But fire came down from heaven and devoured them. And the devil, who deceived them, was thrown into the lake of burning sulfur, where the beast and the false prophet had been thrown. They will be tormented day and night for ever and ever.” (Revelation 20:9b-10)

Looking back, I see with great sadness how people want “the experience”, and, like a drug seeker who wants that “high”, and an altered state of experience, they are still seeking the seducer who calls them back, to relive that “special encounter” they are having with (a) god.  It is not Jesus.  It has become the broad highway, going in the opposite direction of the straight and narrow path that few will follow.  Who are you following?

I have more to say about my studying, and becoming an “ordained minister” in a few of these places, which I do not aspire to use ever in my life.  I reject the counter-culture I see in various churches I have attended, schools I have graduated from as well as churches I have attended.  I reject this “touchy-feely”, “unity spiritual” and “encounter groups” I have been a witness to, unfortunately.  I have seen the truth through the eyes of Christ by reading my bible every day, and leaning on Him to teach me through the Holy Spirit’s opening my eyes while I read and study His Word.  I am hoping you do, too.     

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Daily Intrusions With People Who Are Pushy

car-718781_640So having this troubling observation about the intrusions into my life; I’m dumbfounded by how intrusive people can be as well as how impatient people are.

Here is another example of my frustration at how someone can’t wait a minute or two until I pull out of a parking space in a mall parking lot, and to what extent they will go to get me to move so they can park where I’m parked.  How about finding another parking space?  Just take the next one, lady; the world does not revolve around you!

Audio:  Parking lot intrusive lady wants parking space, sends a guy I don’t think she knew who was standing in the parking lot to come tell me she wants my space

I sometimes ask myself whether I am too impatient with people; they are intrusive by nature and I just should get used to it.  But then I realize that if we don’t have healthy, meaningful boundaries, our walls will fall and there will be no limits on people’s behavior and what become allowable in society.

Social needs for me are that I have a choice about who invades my “personal space”. Personal space being different for everyone, but my thinking is that there are commonly agreed upon social boundaries that most people have, and if you rush someone who is in line ahead of you or are angry that someone takes a long time to cross a street, or someone can’t move as fast as you, then maybe you ought to step back and take a breath.

People really should practice more care with others; I think so.  Valuing people instead of treating them like wild dogs to be shoved out of the way as if people are not important, is wrong.  But how do you tell the “offenders” that?  There are times when we all must be patient and wait our turns.  

Let your hope keep you joyful, be patient in your troubles, and pray at all times. (Romans 12:12)

It seems as though the world has gotten more jaded; the country has become more violent it seems with people’s protests about how a conservative speaking coming to their colleges makes them angry enough to destroy property, and become violent toward other people.  I remember the man who hit someone over the head with a bicycle lock. That really struck me.  I feel society is more dangerous these days. 

An unjust man is an abomination to the righteous, but one whose way is straight is an abomination to the wicked. (Proverbs 29:27)

Prayer becomes all the more important in the times we are living in.  I don’t want to seem panicked, but it is stressful when people don’t seem to realize how pushy they are. Today a “white man in a truck” almost side-swiped me by not slowing down and allowing me to merge into a lane on the freeway.  It seemed like he was racing me for a place in one lane we were beginning to share, although normal drivers would have allowed me into the lane as I was merging onto the freeway.

Again, I wonder how much satan is causing people to act this way?  We cannot see demonic activity, but it is all around us, and I believe the time is near for Jesus to come and gather his “elect”.

It can be none to soon.  Although I enjoy life now that I am a believer in Christ and I have goals I would like to accomplish while I”m on earth, it’s better in heaven and I will be happy to see Jesus in the air when that time comes.

I guess a comforting verse about being patient with people might be this one:  

But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently.  In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans.  And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for God’s people in accordance with the will of God.  And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.  (Romans 8:25-28)

Developing wisdom in these difficult times may be difficult without Christ; I guess we have all we need when we reach out to Him in prayer, and ask Him what to do.  

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Intrusive People Are Boundary Violators

office bulliesMy gripe is always the way people treat me that have no sense of personal boundaries, who intrude and come across as being very invasive.  

People breathing down my back is really upsetting to me.  It seems that people do not have patience these days, to wait in line, to allow another person to leave before practically pushing them to leave, what is up with that?

Here is an audio about my experience at the YMCA while I was dressed and leaving the shower area.

I guess I’m a more genteel lady; I wait my turn in line, I don’t rush people, I stand by understanding they have to gather their things to leave.

I don’t try to rush people while they’re in line at the grocery store, I don’t run my cart into the back of their legs, I don’t drive aggressively taking up the safety space behind a car in front of me, I don’t rush into a gas station, leave cash on the counter ahead of other people waiting in line while I shout out how much gas I want in what gasoline pump like I’m someone special who deserves to take cuts in line.

That reminds me, for years I’ve noticed that white men in pick up trucks, you know, the big F150’s or some big trucks like that, really are aggressive drivers.  I call them, “white men in a truck”, because it seems to be a mental disorder with these guys.  They are the knuckle draggers I keep talking about, the uncivilized jerks of the road who I can’t stand.  They drive aggressively and dangerously, seeming to think that by driving up to the bumper of the car in front of them that the car will automatically move over and let them by.  

I don’t do so, however, and take my time as if I were out for a Sunday drive, knowing of course, that they will become more angry and do something stupid.  They always do, but I remember having a conversation with someone years ago who asked me what I thought about having to move over and let an aggressive driver by.  We talked about enabling them to act that way, as well as safety issues including our own.  We decided to deal with each issue as it came up because we did not want to put ourselves or anyone in danger but we protested the pushing around of still more of these men who like to push people around, and in life, as well.

God has a way of reaching me in these situations now as I get close to Him.  I was not a believer then during that discussion about mean drivers.  These days I feel a spirit of peace where I am surrounded by the peace and love of God so that it didn’t matter to me if I moved over to a slower lane or just stayed in the same lane and let the mean driver go around me.  It’s almost as if I’m protected in an emotional bubble and He will never leave me or forsake me; after all, that is a verse in the bible, one of many that makes the point of not being afraid, God is with you always.

Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. – Deuteronomy 31:6

And there’s the times where I no longer am afraid to speak my mind to people.  Where did this confidence come from to stand my ground during times where I would usually wilt and let them walk all over me? 

The Lord has taught me to not be a slave to any person, and to feel free to live life to its fullest.  I do not have to be afraid.

For God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self-control. – 2 Timothy 1:7

I think the Lord has taught me that I don’t have to tolerate anyone’s mean behavior, and why don’t I stand up to it?  

Surely the righteous will never be shaken; they will be remembered forever.
They will have no fear of bad news; their hearts are steadfast, trusting in the Lord.
Their hearts are secure, they will have no fear; in the end they will look in triumph on their foes. – Psalm 112:6-8

Tonight I did a shift change with the person who’s shift I was taking over, actually relieving him so I was going to be on duty.  I arrive a little early as usual, then waited in my car, so I would be on time and not too early.  The last time I did a shift-change with the guy I was a little too early so I could get the key to open the bathroom and put my uniform on.  I drive a long way to work on Saturday nights, and so I like to wear comfortable clothing until I get to work.

He ignored me, seemed to not speak, then when I returned the key and said to him, “hey, how’s it going?”, he shunned me so I knew he was being deliberately rude and shunned me on purpose.  Nonplussed, I went about my duties, let him drive out the gate and then I closed it behind him, but I knew I may have some problems in the future with him acting this way because in week’s past he had been congenial enough.  I suspected he was kind of a snake in the grass though since he seemed very superficial with me with a big smile on his face, seeming to think I was just a dumb older lady.  He’s about in his early 30’s I would guess.

Getting back to God’s teaching; I waited in my car until the time got closer to my going on shift.  He tapped on my van windows but hid, because when I looked around to see who was tapping on the van I could not see it was him, and I thought I would continue to sit in my van looking at my cell phone and scrolling through messages until it was time to go on shift.  He tapped on my van window again, this time in the front by my driver seat window where I could see him clearly.  I opened the window and he said, “I’m leaving now, okay?” while he dropped the keys to the office where we work inside my car window near my lap.  The keys fell onto the floor in my van, and I said, “no, you’re not off duty yet” and “is there any pass-down you need to tell me?”, to which he walked off.

I tossed the keys out of the van window making a point, saying again, “you’re not off duty!”, not liking what just happened.  A moment later I got out of my van, retrieved the keys, and got my stuff out of my van and walked toward the office door.  He was standing by a pickup truck that had the engine running, just standing there.  He didn’t look at me but was looking forward at the gate.  He waited for me to ask again, quite loudly so he would hear me this time, “is there anything you need to tell me for pass-down?”  He walked toward me, not saying anything, then stopped, pointed to a building, waiting a moment to drag it out, then he told me an alarm had gone off but not to do anything about a panel with indicator lights, it had already been called in so nothing had to be done.  I told him, “you know, I didn’t like your tapping on my van, don’t do it again.”  And then I went into the office and put my things down while he drove through the gate.  I then closed the gate after him and went about my business.  

When the storm has swept by, the wicked are gone, but the righteous stand firm forever. – Proverbs 10:25 

But this is how I felt I needed to say something, let it be known how I felt, correct him and tell him not to do that again, so he would believe me.  I’m not some older woman he can push around.

Be on your guard; stand firm in the faith; be courageous; be strong. – 1 Corinthians 16:13

God empowers me to use good judgment to get my point across to a person, instead of letting them put me down, or cause me hardship by the way that they act.  I feel like I’ve been through this before, always taking the cue to let them be that way.  Now I feel bold and strengthened, as if God is pushing me on, making it right.  Without Him, I would be nothing to anyone, someone easy to push around.  I don’t think God made us to be that way.  

So you are no longer a slave, but God’s child; and since you are his child, God has made you also an heir. – Galatians 4:7

As many have said, we must remember who we are.