Today was an amazing day; I started a new temporary job after leaving a temporary job I was not happy with. I left my previous temporary assignment when the manager started acting strangely; he seemed angry because I had found a bill his company owed of over $42,000.00! He wanted me to pay it after I found out what the balance was, expecting to only pay $350.00 or so. But when I went to pay it, the company told me that the company owed the tremendous amount of over $42,000.000! I was dumbfounded, and in shock.
After that, I sent the manager an email telling him I was unclear on what bills our office paid out and who paid all the other bills that came in the office mail which I opened every morning. He did not respond, he only acted like he hated my guts, and he began to treat me as if I were undesirable, that he couldn’t stand me being in the office, and that I was the dumbest person on the block. He became quite insulting, and I tried contacting my recruiter who sent me to this temporary job assignment, to no avail. He never answered my repeated emails, texts and phone messages. So I took a Monday off as a sick day, hoping my recruiter would have called the angry manager and see if he wanted me to return to work that week. But that never happened. After 5:00 pm Monday, I elected to quit; so I emailed my recruiter that I resigned, effective immediately, because he never responded to any of my messages, asking him to call the manager and find out what went wrong. So that is how I left my last job, after about a month. It was supposed to be a three-month assignment.
So, today, I felt very good about my having quit the last job, in order to accept this new position, which may be a permanent job if I stay the three months and they want to keep me. So far I enjoy the people, and the job is not too hard so that I can learn about the company on my own free time, as well as spend my lunch hour on my laptop at work, happily plugged into an electrical socket, typing to my little heart’s desire. I will have a stable paycheck, and I am so grateful to God for helping me quit my last job, even though I had no idea why that was happening, that it had gone so wrong. I have a new job instead, one that I like and I think the people are very friendly and I am hopeful it will be my last job. I will stay if they will have me, that is all I know now.
I am trusting that the Lord Jesus Christ will help me figure out a way to keep income coming into me, as well as fight my demons that have chased me around the United States for the past two decades or more. It’s just unbelievable what the enemy has stolen from me; a daughter I gave birth to, a level of status I had in my field of psychology, a job at a University I loved, a home I was buying, a new car I bought for earning my master’s degree… so many things went down the drain in those years. But I am not going to cry over spilled milk when I know that I will spend my eternity with the Lord. That is all I know since we don’t know from day to day how much time we have to spend on the planet, nor what our futures may bring. I pray that my life be blessed and that I make it to heaven.
As I wrote on my blog Wednesday, “Seeking A New Job: It Was A Bad Employer“, I had worked approximately for two months in an office for an employer who had a bad attitude toward me after discovering, through my calling the agency trying to pay a bill they owed, that not only did they owe $351.00, but they actually had over $42,000.00 in outstanding debt to the company! Not only where they surprised, but the company had allowed that to happen by not invoicing them more often, even urgently, letting them get away with it!
Was the law office related to the office where I worked? The office where I worked was run by what seemed like a family from out of the United States. They were a software company in Bellevue, WA, which I won’t give the name of, in order that they have privacy and in case I get sued for telling the name of the company! But they have offices in different companies and in the U.S., and are not a well-run company, what with owing so much money to one creditor. It may have been some relation to the company to let that debt get so large, because members of the company I worked for had a CPA (accounting) certification, or other professional certifications that I may not know about. Maybe the attorney(s) was a group of friends, or were involved in business in some manner that they were not wanting to create problems in the company.
They may have been board members, or doing favors for the company I worked in, in exchange for their legal services. Software is used by any company out there, so maybe a software company did favors for this attorney’s office, and would protect the software company in some manner by not forcing them to pay up. After all, attorneys would have the resources to sue the company, but they did not, apparently. The bills had gone back to November 2016.
The end to my story after leaving is that while I was on the phone with another staffing company who had assigned me to work two days next week for them in an office, I was put on hold by the staffing agency receptionist who had to get the information pertaining to the company address they were sending me to. He put me on hold, and another guy came on the phone asking if I were this person, the name which I will not repeat, but it’s unusual enough to know that no one else has that name. When he questioned whether I were this person with the highly unusual foreign-sounding name, I said no, and I gave him my name, after which he placed me back on hold.
I say this because it is humorous to know that the man who had given me such a hard time was busy calling yet another temporary agency, not the one I came through when he hired me, to find a replacement for me. And I knew, I found out.
How odd this is. It makes me think that God is in the mix.
It’s been interesting to find myself looking for another job. Job-seeking seems to be an activity I have been doing on a regular basis for many years. My background and education is in mental health and counseling, social work and even University faculty teaching. Here again I’m not working in those fields and it’s hard to sell myself as an Office Manager type. I’m not finding a whole lot of success these days, although I’ve relocated to a better area where I may find those jobs.
I’m not really an office worker so I want to build on something that I already want to do, which may relate to this blog in some way. I like owning a business, I owned one years ago in the midwest, forming a 501 (c) 3, and finding a way to reach out to people in need and use my social work and counseling skills along with making changes as needed to the organization. I never got paid but we used donations toward various projects we were working on. I did it out of my heart, as a way to fill what I thought was a great need by many suffering people out there who needed help. It almost turned into a social service agency.
I do my best when I am in charge. I’ve noticed that when I am in charge and have the authority to make decisions I do rather well. I also enjoy the respect I garner in that role in a company, however, as a general office worker I often find I am subjected to insulting attitudes, as if I were a dumb animal of some kind. I recently left an Office Administrator/Manager position at a software company for this reason; the Manager started insulting me and was being mean and angry toward me all of a sudden so I resigned. I won’t name the company, that may be in bad form, but I’ll say I may go on http://www.Indeed.com where they discuss how well they liked working at a company and there’s also http://www.Glassdoor.com. They better watch out, I may decide to write about them but will pray about this first. I want to warn others about what happened, that’s all. But it pays to take the high road and not argue or buy into his bad behavior. It only makes things worse.
The reason I believe that the Manager got mad at me was that I found that the company owed a creditor over $42,000.00 since last year. They didn’t know about it, and when I informed them in a professional manner, it was a few days later that the Manager who I had worked with in a professional way began talking to me in derogatory ways, such as making sure that I would not mail a check “in the wrong envelope” or “send it to the wrong address”. Making an issue of this, obviously to insult my intelligence. I looked at him, stunned, and brushed it off as if to say, “I won’t send it to the wrong address”. With a master’s degree and having worked on a doctorate degree, I was dumbfounded. I can read English fine and I do well with mailing a letter, no warning me is necessary.
I believe it was for this reason, that he felt embarassed that this large debt had been accrued on his watch and under his supervision; that whoever worked there before me may have submerged the details from the Management or the accounts payable/receivable departments were also not informed to watch for this bill, as I had been directed to contact them for. Maybe she didn’t do that and maybe he didn’t correct her enough for her to know what to do with the invoices from a law office, and find a way to scan it to all the people I was told to scan those to. It seems a long time, from November 2016, to not know you had accrued that amount that needed to be paid.
And whosoever shall not receive you, nor hear your words, when ye depart out of that house or city, shake off the dust of your feet. ~ Matthew 10:14
So I resigned, and here I am, looking for a job that has long-term potential, where I will be happy to stay a long time and not have to deal with employers who are unreasonable or insulting to their good employees. It has come to mind that not returning to a toxic environment is wise. I had the weekend and then called off “sick” on Monday to reflect and regroup about this situation before resigning. I prayed about it and asked God what to do. A verse came to mind that a dog does not return to its vomit, and to not make the same mistake twice by going back to a company that is not treating me well. It doesn’t work for me, it seems to have gotten worse each time.
As a dog returneth to his vomit, so a fool returneth to his folly. ~ Proverbs 26:11
Due to past mistakes of trying to return to a company after a time off, where I prayed about the outcome, it only got worse. This tells me that it wouldn’t have gotten better at this job, the employer has too much power and being a temporary employee would not have held enough status to make this Manager feel he had to be on his best behavior. That is why when I have the authority, I do better. I need to create a job for myself, and that is why. I believe Satan has held over spirits that have been trained to keep making things worse on the job for me over long periods of time.
I used to think it was me causing all the problems, but in each case I could not answer the question of why it was an employee that turned so hatefully against me. I felt that I was being above-board in all my dealings with the employees at each company. I cannot decide why these things happen. Is it Satan’s way of trying to keep me financially unstable?
After all, I have tried many things to try and make things better, such as speaking to a person who is mad at me for no explained reason, and have not had success. They just enjoy making my life at work more unbearable, being disrespectful, not acting reasonably. Ignoring my attempts to speak with them, or avoiding my attempts to start fresh with them. I can say many times I’ve given them the benefit of the doubt, trying to passively stay out of their way and avoid them politely which seemed to make them want to stalk me and make my life uncomfortable. Some were trying to dominate me which I did not fall for. Every way I tried to handle the problem, they seemed to outwit me by getting away with their bad behavior, often in subversive ways that no one could pin point on them. Like scattering papers around on my desk, pulling documents off my desk so they disappeared, filing wrong documents in files to confuse me when I returned to my desk because I could not find forms or cheat sheets I had in files for my convenience. Even talking to a supervisor never worked. The office bullies and toxic behaviors are accepted, it seemed to be my problem.
I notice that not all people have these things happen and seem to enjoy their work, never being the victim of stalkers or mentally ill people having instantanious connections with you after meeting you that you are not aware is happening. I’ve had these problems with near-strangers all too often. I think Satan is involved. That or I attract these mentally ill, toxic people because of my magnetic, all accepting, fantastic personality, or a sign on my back says, “give me a hard time” that I don’t know about. I feel so targeted.
Someone told me about the electronically induced electromagnetic weapons they are using on people to make them act that way. I don’t know what to think. Is it me, is it Satan or is it electromagnetic weapons that are harming me through these people? Nobody can know for sure unless you are God. I’ve decided to let God lead, and I feel a desire to have a company that I can hire a few good people, part-time, and make good money using my skills in media. That has always been fun for me after the early days of having internet radio available online. It was a great time back then but it was hard; many problems and issues caused me to get into those groups where I would provide the internet radio for a cause I was heavily involved in. Those were the days. It was about the only thing I did in life that I really enjoyed at the time.
As a Christian I have prayerfully asked the Lord what he has in mind for me. Do I go ahead and work long-term for another company while I build up a company of my own? It seems I feel guided to only work part-time, and build a company I want to work for, and be the boss of. I can work more flexibly that way and enjoy the ride. Otherwise I can work at the whim of an employer that wants to subject their employees to unfair treatment and punishment for unknown reasons. I don’t want to leave myself open to feeling victimized by such people. Even though I have a graduate degree, they still think they can do what they want because they rely upon thinking that we will remain a victim to their bad behavior.
Today I found myself walking in Lake Hills GreenBelt Park, in Bellevue, Washington. Getting used to my new camcorder, a Kingear, that I was able to buy from donations for this site: thanks, you’re awesome, guys!
You really help me progress, giving me hope and making me think that people will read my blog in the first place. I pray for your continued success writing, and in whatever else you do!
But what I was thinking about in the last several days is how I may use my counseling skills in a new venue, to earn a living in a way I want to, that I feel I am created to do.
Of course I am in prayer about this daily and I feel God has led me to create this blog. Writing has always been a strength and something I’ve liked doing. My reports as a Mental Health Clinician and Social Worker always got me pats on the back. Those were what I was given credit for the most and the most consistently. Some of us are writers, some are talkers, and some paint, some create music or sing with beautiful voices. We are not created all the same and so finding my way to a life led by God is what I enjoy praying about and seeking.
Finding our avocation, doing something that suits us and earning a living from it is what I’m very interested in learning about now. I don’t want to do the work I’ve been doing, that’s for sure. It’s boring and it does not use my skills.
Why have I gone off my path and for so long? When did I decide to be worldly, working in a worldly field, depending on mankind to tell me what was right and wrong? Why let man tell me what I should do for a living to be valuable, or successful in life? We’re not all made to be accountants, ya know, or doctors, or lawyers, officers of the law, or school teachers.
God is developing me; I know this. He has a way of letting Himself be known to those who love Him, seeking Him out every day.
So in my video, the link is posted above, I talk with God while discussing with you out loud why I don’t want to work in the Mental Health field any more. Even with better pay, I don’t feel it’s the right match for me. I have thought about this before and even created a little video here where I talk about not wanting to go on in working in Mental Health. I may have said some of the same things, I don’t know – it was months ago. Where we belong in life is best decided by God, trusting in Him to show us the way.
For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end. – Jeremiah 29:11 (KJV)
Thou shalt surely give him, and thine heart shall not be grieved when thou givest unto him: because that for this thing the Lord thy God shall bless thee in all thy works, and in all that thou puttest thine hand unto. – Deuteronomy 15:10 (KJV)
I’ve lived in my car for over four months and I am deciding that God has a plan for me, and I will search for it with all my might every day.
There’s something about having been a mental health counselor and wanting to know you’re all right. “You’re”, meaning yourself, you’re okay mentally, yourself.
What a funny test of character, to know I’m here eating at a homeless kitchen, located at Overlake Church where Joyce Meyers was a speaker a few months ago, here in Redmond, Washington. I almost typed California. I must not be doing well. They have a safe parking car camp here, but it’s only for men.
Tonight they’re having a community meal, and I busted the budget a few weeks ago when I had to buy clothes, shoes, get a hair cut and my nails done to start a job where I am office manager in a software company near here. I didn’t have enough to buy groceries, and without a kitchen and refrigerator, I have to buy things that are unperishable, or find something to eat where I can store leftovers maybe overnight. It’s a tough road to hoe, as they say, when you don’t have a refrigerator, oven, stove, bathroom and shower, closet space, office and a desk, all the comforts of home. I realized I have to drive to get anything I need, leaving me disoriented, unconnected and unable to really focus very well.
While starting a new job all this upset and disconnection of my personal life leaves me frustrated, however I know my God is still watching over me. After years of upset and aimless wandering, I finally discovered God is real. I’m very thankful He has been coming to my aid.
I am slowly being released from the devil’s attacks on my life; I was long held captive in a horrible state of mind after leaving California. It wasn’t that good while I was there. I never could understand the targeting that went on; why I was being stalked so many times. Now I know the devil likes to invade a person’s life if they come to Christ but they can’t hang on sufficiently by themself when no one is available to mentor them. I think it’s so important that we are available and encouraging that people contact us, or we reach out to them regularly to see what they’ve read in the bible and maybe give them some bible reading to do and then check up on them later.
Be sober-minded; be watchful. Your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour. – 1 Peter 5:8
I’ve wanted to do a prayer group; get some people on a conference call, or maybe a Skype call. Introduce people to the bible, and share bible readings with them. I believe people are strengthened this way and have a better understanding of who God is instead of letting satan mess with their minds, pretending he is god being mad at them. We can’t let new believers think these things about the Lord Jesus Christ who would welcome them with open arms and not punish them. People can get confused at first. I did. I had to go it alone yet I knew that the Holy Spirit would guide me, reach me, and bring me back to the love of Christ.
My heart gets lifted when I think about Him, how Jesus died on the cross for me and that I’m never alone. He is my friend for life, strengthening and encouraging me to carry on. “You can do it, Suzanne” is what I think he says to my heart and mind, to keep going. It gets better soon. I wonder what God has for me in my future. Will I always live this way?
“I am with you and will watch over you wherever you go, and I will bring you back to this land. I will not leave you until I have done what I have promised you.” – Genesis 28:15
Many believe that we may go through the rapture soon because of the Revelation 12 constellation that is to be found in the sky September 23rd; others have said that Revelation 12 is about Israel, not the rapture. Either way it’s an amazing sign up in the heavens. It has given me pause for thought. If I were raptured as early as September 2017, what would I want to do in life for my last few months on earth? It makes priorities all the more important.
What have you done to plan for your future in heaven, so that you have made every attempt to make life right, here on earth, first?
A few days ago I began a part-time job in Bellevue, Washington, for a temporary staffing agency as an office manager. I was very happy to get this three-month assignment so that I could give up working overnights for a security company I had been working for for about the past two years. Security is not my training or usual occupation, it’s just a permanent job, if you can call it that. I’ve been very unhappy with the odd shifts thrown me now that I’ve been taken off a 40-hour per week job site and put on an old mill far up north in Mt. Vernon. I only get eight hours on that job so taking a new, part-time job working in a nice software company’s office is good news for me. I can still keep the one shift working overnight up north in case I want to come back to security work while seeking a more permanent job, when I am through working for this software company.
I realize that I have become accostumed to living within my means, now that I have a van dweller. I’ve lived in vehicles for over four months, and it’s an up and down life with many benefits, however it’s a cramped lifestyle and many things make it inconvenient to live this way. However I’m glad God has found a way to make it more comfortable for me since I am paying the bills without overdraft notices and living within my means. This relieves a lot of stress for me since my income has been up and down for several years since moving away from California where I was a mental health worker, a clinician to be exact. It makes a difference because I could diagnose people, and at one job I had to diagnose and then do what’s known in California as a “5150”, an involuntary three-day hold in a psychiatric hospital.
I would locate the hospital for the patient and make sure they got there okay after spending time diagnosing them, working with them to see what needs they needed help getting once they were in a mental health venue for the next three days, or more, depending on their mental health after a three day hold. I was proud of my job, thinking I would help people stay safe, also protecting the community I lived and worked in from anyone who had violent tendancies. I was doing my job and found it to be interesting. But then I was disturbed to find out that everything my life had come to be about was falling apart, and I suddenly had to leave California. I never went back to working as a mental health clinician or teaching at a university after that. It has been a long and winding road with many obstacles along the way, yet I am glad to be where I am.
My life has taken many twists and turns when I expected having a successful life. I did not know God then, but had only a peripheral view of Him, in my Al Anon 12-step meetings. We had a higher power but it could not be God; it was whatever we wanted “god” to be and was not the One True God known as Jesus Christ. He has helped me understand how to live in my vehicle(s) and be happy at the same time. I have the joy of the Lord in my heart every day and I know I am in a better place. Once I go to heaven I’ll meet my Lord and Savior having my glorified body, and meet him in the air sometime soon, I hope.
It helps to clear my head and pay attention when I am in the presence of God, praying and speaking to Him and waiting expectantly for the Lord God’s guidance in answer to prayer. I need His guidance; there are so many questions I have at this time in my life. I believe I have had big changes in my life since becoming a true Christian; I gave notice and moved out of my apartment to live in my car; I was able to trade my car in for a large van; and my low-skill, low-paying job has not changed in almost two years. If I followed my heart’s desire I would want to create a media company that is for conservative Christians, paying writers and videographers, much like CBN but with a cessationist perspective which I believe is the true word of God.
Cessationism vs. continuationism divides Christians, so I believe a media company focusing on Christian views could be a vehicle to teach, and provide the bible in a way that continuationists will take another look at why cessationists believe the way they do. I also want to start a company where I can pay Christian friends to contribute to a much-needed Christian journalism company.
People need to hear the truth. As a former atheist and raised that way in my family, I did not hear what the bible was about. I heard the cliches and bumper sticker quotes from the bible from those who never read and understood anything in the bible; the arm-chair judges of Christianity. That is not where I learned the truth about God’s word and what being a Christian meant. I only knew that on occasion when I went to church with a friend, or with my grandmother a few times as a very young child, I felt afraid, confused and put off by it. I never heard anything that I could actually become interested in, that was loving, thoughtful and kind. It was more like a cold slap in the face if I did hear from Christians about their religion.
I know we have to tell the truth about heaven and hell, but I don’t believe that should be one of the first things you teach someone about God. First you tell them about Jesus who died on the cross for our sins, that we are sinful because from the beginning, mankind fell from God’s grace to sin, and that we need Jesus, Yeshua, who paid for our sins, so that we can be forgiven by the Father in heaven, Yahweh. We can be with the Lord at the end of our lives.
Romans 8:3 says,
For what the law could not do, in that it was weak through the flesh, God sending his own Son in the likeness of sinful flesh, and for sin, condemned sin in the flesh:
Learning who God is, that the Word was God and the Word became flesh is another important truth that I didn’t know and would have become confused by. It takes some time before a person is able to understand how unbelievers can spend eternity in eternal punishment called “hell”.
In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. – John 1:1
And the Word was made flesh, and dwelt among us, (and we beheld his glory, the glory as of the only begotten of the Father,) full of grace and truth. – John 1:14
A Christian oriented media company could be used to help the unbeliever understand Christianity better so there is some discussion or dialogue about what they’ve heard or read through the media company. They have more information to go on. It may be a source of comfort to them to finally know what God is about, since so many, such as myself, never had the guidance we needed to believe in the Lord Jesus Christ. What a sad loss of year’s of one’s life to not know God, and His Son Jesus Christ. I am still learning, and being taught by his Holy Spirit when I read the bible.
To combat the sin that’s out there and getting worse every day, let’s solve the problem and go forward, showing the world what Christian life is about. We save lives, the souls of friends and strangers who want to learn about Jesus by sharing His Word in a kind way, helping them to understand, not flogging them over the head with news about flaming hell and brimstone. What message of hope is that? It is a twisted message by untrained messengers driving away people from Christ I believe. Giving them the message of hope of Jesus Christ can be taught in a loving way.
We all are sinners, we all have sinned. Let’s forgive and teach people the right way and God can do the rest.