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Thoughts About Those Living With Mesothelioma

strength faith survivorSomeone suggested that I write about Mesothelioma, a type of cancer thought to be caused by asbestos.  I thought it would be wise to study the topic first, before writing about it.

I discovered that Mesothelioma is a fast spreading form of cancer usually caused by abestos fibers being inhaled, and then becoming embedded into a person’s lungs, abdomen or heart.  The resulting inflammation causes tumors, producing an aggressive form of cancer that creates a disease causing people to have an average life expectancy of 12 to 21 months.  It is good to report that the prognosis is improving for patients with mesothelioma.

People do not know they have this form of cancer because of it’s long latency period, so that symptoms do not show up for long periods of time.   Malignant mesothelioma would have spread before a person has a diagnosis of mesothelioma.

mesotheliomaPeople may never know they have this disease until they go to a doctor complaining of shortness of breath and chronic coughing.  It is then that their doctor may have an image scan of some form done to help in making a diagnosis of mesothelioma.  Mesothelioma treatment may involve combinations of surgery, chemotherapy, radiation or experimental medicine through clinical trials, according to

It is debilitating to find out that someone you love, or yourself, has learned of what could be a serious diagnosis of one’s health, one that appears to indicate a dim future of life and one that is possibly life-threatening.  I have never met anyone who was anxious to face death.  We all have to face death of our bodies at some point in our lives, and facing the prospect of death or of a serious, debilitating illness can be a frightening reality.

Having cancer, or “the C word” as it used to be called, can be a frightening diagnosis.  It feels like the end of the world, a huge obstacle to whether a person lives or dies.  Things were a lot more serious then when it was thought that cancer kills and there is no hope of survival.

We know that that’s not true today, with many finding alternate or medical cures, to help them fight their battles and treatments of cancer which change over time, giving people hope of survival and beating this terrible disease for good.

Alternative medicine

Natural healing advocates may talk about healing cancers by stopping eating sugar along with getting more oxygen into the body’s cells.  As a researcher who is interested in healing the body and mind for myself, I find these alternative treatments to be interesting.

Doctor’s medical training often does not cover alternative healing methods, so patients get only their form of healing.  I do not argue the medical treatments by medical doctor’s today; I do not have enough education, and no medical training to take that on.  I’m sure there are fine, caring doctor’s out there who really want to find cures for aggressive cancers such as mesothelioma but they are limited to the cancer research and their medical training, and what insurance allows them to do as far as treatment.

I think it wise that a patient of mesothelioma learn about their form of cancer, and also research the alternative treatments found around the world in order to choose what they want to be treated with, how and what the research shows.

Today’s psychology

familycomfortThere are many ways that psychology today can help alleviate the distress caused by having a serious illness to contend with.  We can find help and support through counseling, or through caring friends and family.  When we are suffering it is vital that we don’t go through our fears alone and that we find hope, happiness and fulfillment while we fight whatever physical battles we face.

For the ultimate hope, many people look to spiritual guidance and a faith in something greater than themselves for times when they are faced with overwhelming challenges.  Studies have shown that having a faith in something greater than oneself can help people calm their anxiety.  Prayer has helped people, praying to a higher diety, or to the unknown.  It all seems to help with the anxiety and depression people feel when they are someone they care about has become very ill.  The warmth found in a mother’s arms, such as for a small child, calms the person and lets the strength and caring of another person carry them, until they find strength to move on.  Love, care and compassion work wonders to help a person move forward in dealing with disease.

Prayers being prayed by people for those who are ill also may help, according to reports of studies being performed about prayer.  The relaxation involked by prayer or medidation calms the body so that the body can heal, according to a Harvard scientist.

My Christian viewpoint

As I Christian, I have a particular perspective about illness and health where I rely upon the bible for information.  If I were ill, I would look to Christ and the bible for comfort and guidance.  I am also a cessationist, a Christian who believes that the miraculous “gifts” given to the Apostles to start the early church were given, so that they could preach God’s message and be validated by the miracles they performed.  I do not believe people today have miraculous, healing gifts, and I cringe when I watch supposed “miracle healers” online.

Christ-comforterFeeling a loss of control over their bodies and minds, even, places great anxiety, fear and depression on some, but for those who are sure of Christ, they can be even comforted, once the initial shock over their sudden and great distress is realized.

The bible is full of teaching about healing.  A verse that comes to mind, Proverbs 4:20-22 says;

My son, pay attention to what I say; turn your ear to my words.  Do not let them out of your sight, keep them within your heart; for they are life to those who find them and health to one’s whole body.

This verse in and of itself should cause hope to someone suffering from a debilitating disease.  I realize that not everyone is a Christian but saying something encouraging to someone who is sick can help.

A broad span of issues can cause disease, from having evil in one’s life, known as “sin” in the Christian world, or biological issues.  Let me be clear, there is enough sin going around in people today that sin is not limited nor is necessarily the reason, that someone becomes sick.  Please don’t feel that you or someone you love has become seriously ill because of their sin; we are all sinners, and someone’s illness can be spread by someone else or caused by the food we ingest or other environmental factors that can poison systems of the body.  Many things can cause illness in the body, including mental illness, in my belief.

I’m not a doctor, but writing about cancer, and cancer that is thought to be caused by abestos, called “Mesothelioma”, causes me to explain this.  I want to head off some of the false beliefs, and false doctrines, that people who are suffering from serious diseases can fall victim to, and save some time from going down that road.  However, there are things that people can do to help them heal in the world today, which may be options, or compatible treatments to the biomedical world of treatment today.

Heretics and healing

Many people find false healers, putting their hopes in these heretical actors, find they are let down when they are not healed or ignored in some back room.  They are kept out of sight of a large congregation where people are fooled, giving money and praise to these disasterous meetings.  In one of my blog posts I delve more into false teaching.

Also to be considered by any Christian so that they are not fooled, is the knowledge that satan, and his demonic dominion, may also have healing, supernatural powers.  People practicing sorcery may use magic which draws upon the occult of demonic warfare.  Stories of magicians using sorcery can be found in the bible, such as Simon, and Bar-Jesus.

2 Thessalonians reads;

Even him, whose coming is after the working of Satan with all power and signs and lying wonders,

And in Revelation 13:11-14, we read;

11 And I beheld another beast coming up out of the earth; and he had two horns like a lamb, and he spake as a dragon.

12 And he exerciseth all the power of the first beast before him, and causeth the earth and them which dwell therein to worship the first beast, whose deadly wound was healed.

13 And he doeth great wonders, so that he maketh fire come down from heaven on the earth in the sight of men,

14 And deceiveth them that dwell on the earth by the means of those miracles which he had power to do in the sight of the beast; saying to them that dwell on the earth, that they should make an image to the beast, which had the wound by a sword, and did live.

Demons actually were angels thrown out of heaven and now dominate the earth, forming weapons against people considering believing in Christ Jesus.  They attack primarily the mind and can confuse a person to be angry at the Lord Jesus Christ, not understanding what Christ did for us.  A person can be helped by the spiritual world, be it bad spirit powers, or being of God’s power.

Preachers such as Benny Hinn who has been seen as the heretic that he is, with scenes in the background described by people who attended those meetings, where sick people await to be healed are kept waiting in the back room never to go on stage.  Those people are never healed and are left with a crushing realization that miracle healer Benny Hinn is not going to heal them.  I would propose that many of the word of faith preachers out there have been sufficiently exposed by YouTuber’s, bloggers and others who have been victimized by the same false preachers, and share how they know that this is false teaching of the bible.

If you are familiar with the teaching of Justin Peters who teaches about word of faith and other false teachings and how they exploit people, you might hear him share about how he wanted to be healed of Cerebral Palsy and attended Benny Hinn’s miraculous healing meetings as well as those of Ken Copeland and Jesse Duplantis.  Justin Peters did say that he believes now that his full healing will happen when he is given his glorified body, that it will not take place “on this side of heaven”.  I tend to believe this.  Jesus used signs to prove he was the son of God, and even when he performed many miracles, people still did not believe him.

It is heartbreaking when people want God to heal them so desperately, and they usually are not healed miraculously and immediately, like how the Apostles healed in the early church.  Many know that after studying the teachings of Justin Peters and John MacArthur, for example, that heretics are interested only in money, living lavish lifestyles that Jesus did not teach Christians to do.  It is not the message of the bible, nor is the message of the bible about false healing.

The message of the bible is about how Christ died on the cross for our sins, was raised up after the third day, and pain the price for man’s sinful natures.  He is alive and interceding on our behalves, seated at the right hand of the Father.  If you are a Christian, you should know this is the message of the bible.  We are forgiven and saved from an eternity of punishment.

I must say here that Christ can perform miracles any time he wants to.  As a cessationist I do not have a belief that Christ is no longer able to perform miracles.  He is the Son of God, and he can certainly heal people if he wishes.  We do not limit the capacity of God, which is very misunderstood and misreported by many who cast stones at the Bereans who study and learn from the bible, as opposed to believing and practicing whatever is preached these days.


love researchBefore one falls into a black void with the prospect of possibly not surviving mesothelioma, they should get busy researching what is out there that may be of help to their health.  We all could be faced with serious, debilitating illnesses and possibly some of you already have, but before one falls into fear thinking they could never survive the news of their facing a serious medical illness such as mesothelioma, a few things should be done.  Seeking comfort of friends and family and becoming open to the available information that is out there that could help support the healing process are the things I would do in the face of this terrible disease called mesothelioma.  I would not give up seeking what could be done to treat my illness and become healthy, no matter what the prospects are said to be concerning my survival rate.

Another thing I would do is find comfort in practicing my form of faith.  For you it might be meditation or seeking some form of religious practice that can help calm your fears and anxiety, depression and all other emotional reactions and responses to having a diagnosis of mesothelioma.

There is pain and fear in knowing that someone you love is suffering from some disease that they feel no control over, adding to the confusion of questioning why this has happened to them, but the way through these things may be an opportunity to look to Jesus, who is full of compassion, love and comfort.

Even while people survive mesothelioma to live long lives, it is still good to know that  there is a loving God in Jesus Christ who can heal, comfort and provide compassion at any stage or situation in life.  Many have found Christ, but others have learned the wrong things in the bible, so have sadly rejected Christ.  But in Christ there is hope of living a better life after we die, which we all most probably will have to face, and reach a place of knowing He is waiting patiently for us with open arms.

The knowledge that Christ awaits the children of God to join him in the heavenly realms in Christ Jesus can bring joy to someone suffering, and the Holy Spirit joins with Christ’s joy in bringing God’s children home.  We are not alone.

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Speaking In My Native Tongue: My Tongue Is American English

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I’m reading about spiritualism from Africa, and I realize some of the things I learned while earning my doctorate degree in Psychology, shamanism, in particular, were of voodoo roots.  Then I became a Christian, and holy hell broke loose.  I learned something new; I am not a tongues-speaker, and I never will be.

But the Helper, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, he will teach you all things and bring to your remembrance all that I have said to you. – John 14:26

This is scary to me considering how much money I spent earning my Master’s degree in Counseling Psychology, to starting my Ph.D. coursework, only to find God, then to find out that all of the teaching on Psychology was of worldly teaching, without God and would not heal people. Needless to say, I have maxed out my student loans and owe about $225,000 in student loans. I will not ever pay it back, no way. It’s above my pay level. I am looking for a job.

From what I am reading, several spiritual experiences of shamanism came from Africa, by a guy named Seymour, and I know the backlash I’m going to get from my friends who speak in tongues, and tell me I am of the devil, because I don’t believe them. I am not of the devil, and don’t speak in tongues. But that is not the reason for my blog post just yet. I am wanting to clear up a misconception, or a misunderstanding, of the devil in the kinds of spiritual worship that is out there calling itself Christian. I want to be counted as one that does not speak in tongues and is teachable, so that I can be friends with people who speak in tongues who I believe are sincere in their faith, but have just misread portions of the bible and who do not understand the founding father of their religious denomination.

For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places. – Ephesians 6:12

It is William J. Seymour who founded the present day Pentecostalism, and I’m sure I have made several people angry, because I only have four readers at this point, and I humorously say that because it’s the truth. But all of you, except maybe for one, will not agree with me, here. I still think it’s funny because I know what kind of impact I will have on people, and that is none. None of my readers will care or they will tell me I am of the devil which I know I can handle because I’ve already been told I’m of the devil, or something along those lines by someone on Facebook who I care very much about and love like a sister, if that be possible.

Back to my story; I worked toward a Ph.D. and taught college, at the University of Phoenix, which I enjoyed very much. We were not allowed to let students out of class early but I wanted to keep teaching but I had to leave California at the time in kind of a hurry because I lost my house. I then had nowhere to live so I left the state of California. This was many years ago, around the time I finished my Master’s degree, in 1999.

I have more to say, I’m only getting started. My life is a cornucopia of trying to be good, tell the truth, follow the 12-step programs of which I was a member, (ACA, Al-Anon, debtors anonymous, and OA), and be “spiritual”, believing in a Higher Power Greater Than Myself. That’s all I knew about God, and the Lord’s Prayer.

Now, years later I can relate to the speaking in tongues people talk about and speak in. I went to church in Vacaville, California, where they spoke in tongues years ago, a rather large church where speaking in tongues was the norm. There was also an interpreter most of the time who would speak out in the congregation but I couldn’t hear him from where I sat so could not understand what he said. I think he spoke in English, my native tongue. It was not always the case though, when someone spoke in unintelligible tongues, that someone else acted as an interpreter. I guess God did not want people to understand what was said, in the gibber-tongues that had been spoken.

I am saying I am warning you; it is not fun to be under the control of one or more spirits, being slain in the spirit, speaking in tongues, or hearing spiritual voices. I have had more things happen to me than anyone I know, and I know that it was God that was treating me this way; NOT! No, He wouldn’t do that. I have since found God, through His Son, Jesus Christ, who has treated me with respect and guidance, never wearing me down, only finding me slain in spirit and helping me up.

He is a gracious God, willing to help anyone who reaches out for help to Him.

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Seek God’s Peace With Difficult People

photomania-97d3ba97ac44c9b101bce641bcc0799fWhenever I find it is time to find a new job I like to think back on how I started the job; the feeling I had when I first began and how people treated me.  Often I find that someone in the group was more needy and demanding of my time, who I felt was a bit too clingy, almost stalking me, really.  A lady I worked with who was a Chemical Dependency Counselor like me at the time would come into my office after group when I tried to write my notes for each client who had attended my group, and she would be quite chatty, talking about what I felt were superficial things, like what decorations someone put up on their door to their office.

At that time I rode a bike to work, not having a car and felt kind of funny about that.  I was a grown woman who did not want to ride the bike and would loved to have owned a car at the time.

One night I realized that after group, I really needed to take the bus home and load my bike on the front nose of the bus, and I was really tired of being cornered by this lady named “Mary” never taking the hint, a rather obvious “hint”, after saying I had to get my notes done before I went home.  I felt she was disregarding my need to get my work done, thoughtlessly talking on and on about her mom’s health and what she wanted to cook all the time, and I felt she was a bully.  She was selfish, ignoring my need to get my group notes completed and would not leave me alone.

One evening I simply threw my notes on my desk at work and went home, not stopping to talk with her and just walked out the door of the office building.  We were the last two there and I knew she would lock the door.  She had group notes stacked up in a basket she had not done and I guess when I left she would leave, not having me to assure her that she was funny, engaging, and super special to me.  I would fake these things so that I would be accepted in a group at work, although I wanted to get along with everyone so I could get my work done, and fly under the radar.

It backfired.  They would only seek me out to provide counseling services and psychological food for them to feed off of, draining my energy.  If I revoked my free affirming their wellness to me, they would become angry, often stalking me in a way of demanding I pay attention to them.

 And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. – Philippians 4:7

How did I become so blind to my own creating a monster?  I believe I was a nurturer from way back, nurturing my mother when she felt needy in her marriage with an alcoholic spouse, leaving her feeling hurt and maybe alone.  What did I know, I was only a child but I was groomed to be an emotional provider for my mother, not knowing how it happened.

This also cometh forth from the Lord of hosts, which is wonderful in counsel, and excellent in working. – Isaiah 28:29

Now I don’t want the role and would only like Jesus to help correct this situation for me, helping me to reflect on how I start out being nice, but then get snared into a trap set by the person to use me for their own personal needs.  People learn to like me because they can see what harm they can cause me, running me out of a company, then they have the power to do it to someone else and it never stops.  They feed on the wrong things in life and won’t do well if God decides to return for His elect anytime soon, which I’m hoping He has on His agenda, but we will never know.  We don’t know the day nor the hour, only the season.  

I hope I have made an impact on someone who may have the same issue: who gives and gives and gets smashed by it.  We need to protect ourselves in the world, and be wise, looking to the Lord for guidance.  

As a chemical dependency counselor I should have known that being nice to someone can mean life or death for someone, for their emotional energy.  They turn around and feed of me, acting like I am a drug.  They need to fill the void with something, someone named Jesus who can fill their needs better than I can, better than anyone can.  I only need to know how to protect myself long enough that I can get into a place of prayer and call upon God to show me the way with a person.  We all need to seek His Counsel.  He is the best psychiatrist anyone could have.

Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new. – 2 Corinthians 5:17

For me, it will probably take a lot of undoing of old messages I grew up on, no longer being that “old self”, because we are new inside when we come to know Jesus who changes us to become new creatures in Christ, and we begin to see people the way He does, and begin to value their souls.  I need to make a new attempt at getting space and setting boundaries from people, but with God’s precious guidance at the ready, letting Him lead and trusting Him in every situation.  

(Since I see how I could have written much more for this blog post, I may want to come back to it later.  It sure is interesting, and I can find much more to say about this issue; getting boundaries around unhealthy people.)

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My Own Mental Health Counselor Is Jesus

My job ended today at my job site.  There was no reason given by the client at the site I worked for.  Everything seemed okay, until another security guard showed up telling me he was being trained for 40 hours at my site, and would be taking 32 of my hours, another eight of my friend’s who works as a security guard there, too.  So we were puzzled as to why this man named Anthony, who was very nice and neatly dressed in his uniform, would announce he is going to be placed at the site I’ve been working at for eight months, usually getting plenty of overtime, as well.

I couldn’t understand, why was this happening?  My emotions ran wild; I was very stressed by this man’s taking my hours, and I knew this meant I was either getting fired, or would be placed at a new site.

I sought Jesus, asking why this was happening.  I wanted my emotions to calm down, for everything to seem normal, again.  I had enjoyed the site however little the pay was but was making it work by living in a van, saving my money instead of spending it and working on what I would write for God here on this blog.

Well, he got the job as it was my last day today, rather my last day of work was yesterday.  After a meeting with Human Resources today in which I vented my feelings I was taken off the site “effective immediately”, although the site personnel never gave our security company a reason for my being let go.

Here’s what I think; I was let go because a few weeks ago a stalker, I call him that, did give me problems at the front desk after which I walked away from the desk leaving him standing there, and when I returned a few minutes later, he was still standing there looking for me.  I left again, this time going down to the basement, using a key to go in a room where I knew he wouldn’t find me and that I could vent to God and ask Him what I should do about this man. Well I got my answer, that is to be protected from this site where two or three men have been out of line with me already and so I was moved, this is my belief, to keep me away from the strange, immediate connectors who take away my dignity, finding solace in me and wanting a free ride from my emotional life.

It is draining me when I have to, no, when I am expected to, provide either comfort services, emotionally comforting those people who try to attach themselves to me, or who want me to show my appreciation for them so they return again and again, feeding off me like I’m the drug they so want in life, when I know it’s Jesus that they want, but they just don’t know Jesus yet. That is God’s way of telling me that yes, he sees that go on and it’s devastated me in the past and I cannot go on being used that way by men.

Thank you Jesus, you are the only man I trust.

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Cessationism And The Miracles Jesus Still Performs

detail-1434536_1920I guess what bothers me the most about the continuationists, is there misunderstanding, from what I’ve read, of what cessationism is.  They think the cessationists think that Jesus is done performing miracles and that no other people can get healed, and miraculously, that Jesus will perform.

Cessationists believe Jesus still can, and does, perform miracles as he wishes, any time of day or night.  He acts when he wants to provide those healing miracles.  All we do is ask, possibly keeping in prayer over long periods of time, or whatever the Spirit moves us to do.

We can’t control what Jesus will do out of the mercy of His heart.  He may have reasons for healing some but not others, and we can’t know all that until we meet him in heaven, is my belief, at least.  Unless, of course, something comes to mind to help explain to my human mind the reasons for which I still suffer from low-thyroid or otherwise am not as healthy as I would like.

Don’t think I haven’t prayed for my miraculous healing.  I have, over years of trying, and I still suffer the consequences of having low-thyroid hormonal function.  The only guidance I believe I’ve gotten in this respect are the many ways I can help relieve some of the fatigue, and general malaise of my failing thyroid condition.

My questions to some of you are, are we so big-headed that we have to act like Jesus?  Do we march around healing people, or do we seek God to provide for us, including the healing that we want?  What is wrong with praying to the miraculous God who created us, instead of going to a “middle man”, who lays hands on us, or says a prayer, maybe a formula prayer like they teach in those classes online, to heal someone?  I think it’s an abomination to think Jesus no longer heals.

He can do what He wants.

It is said by cessationalists that the bible, and I use the King James Version, is God’s final canonical work created for humans to read; a finished book given to us by the Lord Jesus Christ and which is sufficient for us to learn about Him from.  It is all that is needed.