Christianity · Jesus Christ

Jesus, A Friend In Times Of Need

Jesus-names-ofTonight I’m just updating folks about my hopefully impending move out of my van into a house that I will share with another lady.  She is showing me her house this weekend.

It’s been a long road being homeless with few happy times, although I have gotten closer to the Lord Jesus Christ because of it.

I rely on him for everything.

I hope to make it up to heaven, dirty rags and all because he has been the best provider of all my needs.  

A friend sent me a check for almost all of a full month’s rent so that will help me with move-in costs; the full first, last and a deposit.  That makes it steep but now I have money for most of the first month’s rent.

I am very grateful to friends who have stood by my side and encouraged me to keep going in my walk with the Lord.

He has been a friend to me as I get to know him more.  

Praise the Lord Jesus!

Angels · Christianity · Faith · Jesus Christ · Savior

Unbelievers Need God’s Grace Before Time Runs Out: Gaining Understanding Of The Spiritual World

angel-2693196_640I want to warn you that I think we are all being extra-challenged by Satan’s demonic world at this time, with all the world’s disturbances, people’s inability to handle their emotions, and the outpouring of rage we are seeing in everyday events.

 Warning: we have a lot of aggression in the world right now, may be Satan’s limiting the emotional functioning of people.

I remember the days when you said, “s’cuse me, can I get by you?” would render a person overly apologetic; it seems we all did it, were so very polite, apologizing for being in the way of someone, not knowing, and really not at the fault of anyone, but it was polite and very automatic when we said, “sorry”.  Remember?

Nowadays we hear the four-letter language telling us we have to “f” off and “get out of the way B#tch!”, and an almost sudden explosion of anger perpetrated upon us if we didn’t bow down to their dominion right away.  They are never wrong, their anger seems justified to their limited emotions, a sidelined emotional spectrum that doesn’t have more speeds than one; that of anger.

 Oppressive spirits use people to harm me, in my opinion.

A few years ago a friend gave me a book with a title relating to demonic spiritual strongholds, and the prayers I might say to cast the demons off me and to stay away.  It was helpful, at the time, but I have since decided that I am not God so that I have Him available to cast them down for me; to protect me, to say for me what they will hear and pay attention to, instead of my saying they have no dominion over me.  I just tell them that I now belong to Jesus Christ, so they have no power over me unless Jesus allows it.  

It may be more for my benefit that I say this, in order to help me grow my faith.  I think Jesus wants us to know what he says to us and to help us become more clear on what he is saying.  My strength grows stronger as I talk to the Lord out loud, and read the bible out loud.  I feel this helps me build my strength in the Lord as well.

 My insights as I grow stronger in the Lord.

I don’t understand the spiritual, any more than what’s in the bible.  I know that now the psychiatric world has begun exploring whether demons are real, or whether they are a manifestation of someone’s false belief for reasons why they have so much trouble psychologically with hearing voices, experiencing spiritual occurrences which can’t be explained, but I sympathize with these people, profoundly.  I am one that believes that spirits are real, not to scare you off, but to present another view of false teaching in the medical community.  We know there are lots of problems there, just in the treatments they use, and in the natural remedies they ignore.  They promote taking pharmaceutical drugs, and in the case of those who may have a psychiatric diagnosis, they are often presumed to be mentally ill and put on drugs.

I feel they have fallen short of learning about the world, and the truth of Jesus Christ.  Patients and doctors alike have no understanding of how real spirits are.  There are ministering angels that are of God, they are good, they are sent out to protect and inform people.  Then there are the fallen angels who like to harm people making them think they are mentally ill, and in some cases they are deluded into thinking that someone is talking to them from a distance using microwave weapons.  I left that line of thought years ago, and it is my belief that the Lord Jesus Christ never wanted me to return to that line of thought again.

Those people are taken over with the thought that there are electromagnetic weapons that are harming them, some call this “electronic harassment” or torture, but the truth may be that the devil is making them think this way, that mankind is shooting weapons to harm a segment of the population, across the U.S. and around the world.  This may be true, yet the better answer might be that whatever weapons man uses on people to harm them, it is from Satan that they do these things.  Satan inhabits people as we read in the bible, and since they are from Satan, they want to harm people.  That’s what Satan is set to do; harm people so they never will come to Christ; nor call upon Him to solve their problems.

I for one have experienced these problems in my walk in life, and I am very grateful to know that I am one of the Lord’s believers and have God on my side.  I think that since I believed, I have become much more healthy and strong, so that I know what is happening to my life more.  Instead of it seeming to be an exercise of pointless, random, problems I’ve faced, it seems to be an exercise of gaining strength in the Lord Jesus Christ and gaining ground in what I am learning.  I have God on my side to help me be strong against the people who have harmed me and I can grow righteously – obeying God – in these times, no matter what people do.

The name of the Lord is a strong tower; the righteous man runs into it and is safe. ~ Proverbs 18:10

I would help those in need if I had the chance.  At this point all I can do to help those with needs is to tell them to tell Jesus Christ, as their Savior, who has all the real answers for their lives, about their struggles.  He will help them.  He would save them, if they turn to him, asking in a pure heart as best as they can, to be their Savior.  The rest is easy, he begins showing them who He is, how He has love for them, and wants to save them for all eternity.  It grows, having a working relationship with God has been my experience.

Testing the spirits becomes a casual exercise, because the Holy Spirit teaches what to expect.  By that I mean, at least for me, that I can know beforehand what person is going to cause me hardship.  Is it a personality type?  I don’t know but I seem to have acquired a spiritual discernment that tells me what I need to know about a person.  Do I think they are straight-across honest?  Are they unstable?  Can they turn on me on a dime?  Do they seem wholesomely honest with me and seem to have a conscience?  Or do they have a fake demeanor, that is shallow in nature?  I can see this a mile away.  I am almost 100% right – not that I am perfect – buy my radar tells me is there is something wrong with a person I talk to.  What are the depths of their truths?  How well meaning are they?  Are they a good judge of people, and does it matter to them?

Beloved, do not believe every spirit, but test the spirits to see whether they are from God, because many false prophets have gone out into the world. ~ 1 John 4:1

I have my own walk with Jesus, my own devastated life which I have experienced for years.  I have much that has happened to me that I usually do not share.  It was one, big nightmare for me until I learned that Christ helps us.

 Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because, having stood the test, that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love him. ~ James 1:12

Waiting for me is God, the Lord Jesus Christ on the day that I die.  That, or get taken up if the rapture occurs before that, but I have now a constant friend I can call upon who helps me, challenges me to think about life, and has me in the palm of his hand.  I am Christ’s and I can never be lost.  I am not willing to nor will I ever want to go back to living for Satan.  He seeks to kill, steal and destroy and is a roaring lion waiting for those he can devour.

Angels · Christianity · Enemies · Faith · Jesus Christ · Rapture · Savior

The World Goes Berserk In Satan’s Hands

spooky-2580619_1280I was dumbfounded when I went to the laundry mat yesterday and a man literally blew up at me for not “being patient” after I had given him several minutes to move away from the dryer where I was wanting to remove my dry clothes from the dryer.  He stood right in front of my dryer, and at first, noticing this, I walked over to the front desk lady and asked her for the bathroom code, thinking that after I came back from the restroom, the man in front of the dryer I was waiting for would have had the time to move and allow me room to get my clothes.

He stood there, his back was to me, not moving or seeming to be doing much of anything, so I politely said, “Excuse me, can I get my clothes out of this dryer?”  He did not respond and I was not sure that he heard me, and I was not sure why he did not respond at all since I was sure he could have heard me.  So I repeated my question, and gently tapped the dryer so that he would know I was standing right behind him wanting into the dryer.  But instead of acknowledging me and saying, “Oh sorry, yeah sure, let me get out of your way” or something normal, he blew up at me instead, escalating into calling me the “b” word, (which excuse me, but I repeated back to him, not wanting to be a victim), and he was coming completely unstuck in a raving, lunatic stream of lecturing me and telling me I needed to “wait 2 seconds” and “be patient” which he was a good example of, being patient.

Well this went on for 30 seconds and he suddenly acted like he might attack me physically by twisting his body in a rageful manner as if to stack a step toward me, after which I backed away, taking my laundry in the basket on wheels and rolling away to load up my laundry in my clean laundry bags to leave the laundry mat.  He kept on yelling about the injustice to the laundry lady, and she quieted him and said, “I’m sorry”, in a compassionate tone.  I had already become quiet, ignoring his mad outburst.

 Describing how the man at the laundry mat sounded so berserk.

I believe that being in the end times, we are facing the fierceness of Satan’s devils making the human race seem unquestioningly demonic.  There is so much discord in the world with the Democrats being so against what our United States stands for and was founded upon: Christian liberty, the U.S. Constitution, the Bill of Rights, and our form of government being a republic, and not a direct democracy, but some may argue that is is a representative democracy.  We live in a wonderful country, and are strong.  There is no other country like the U.S.  

I have, for many years, probably for my whole life, been the subject of a tyrannous spiritual warfare, which is described in the bible, and how people have been inhabited, causing them to have violent, bizarre behavior. These beings are real if you are a believer like me.  I believe the whole bible, not just some things, but God is real and so is His Kingdom.  He creates what he chooses and he created the angels that were thrown out of heaven, led by Lucifer, the angels who followed him known as demons, or unclean spirits.  They went against God, and now inhabit the earthy sphere, causing great harm to humans, who may have a chance in knowing Christ, and not abiding in the will of the devil.  Our strength as Christians against these devils come through Christ Jesus, alone. 

And his tail drew the third part of the stars of heaven, and did cast them to the earth: and the dragon stood before the woman which was ready to be delivered, for to devour her child as soon as it was born. ~ Revelation 12:4

Most of my life has been cut off and oppressed, because Satan is who I was raised with in my family.  We all were never believers, not even my mother who was raised as a Methodist, but it seemed to be only “recreational Methodism”, in my mind.  She gave up her belief in Jesus after marrying my dad, who was a hard-core atheist.  He dictated how we were raised, without God.

So my life had a blend of Methodism, through relatives, on my mothers side of the family.  I never knew them well.  My father’s side were Roman Catholics, and many Christians believe they are not true Christians in their doctrine and theology.  They pray to Mary and other saints, for instance, and may read their own bible, which does not say to have a relationship with Christ, or is it the Priest’s who tell them they may not have direct contact with Christ?  They are not Christians in my belief, they are just pagans taking the time to listen to some Luciferian Priest speak in a foreign language, maybe Latin, acting like they are the only way you can have Jesus in your lives.  

Jesus is for all people who choose to come to him, as we say.  It really means who will get to know him from reading the bible (I suggest the King James Version because the other versions have changed, or left out, certain verses and changed the meaning in the text), and who will pray to him, believe on him (as I’ve heard it said), and come to know Him.  He will come to know you if you are really trying to get to know Him, and sticking with it is the best advice I have on this.  When you are first starting out in believing on the Lord Jesus Christ, believe in your heart and ask Him where you go next in your beginning faith.

I the LORD search the heart, I try the reins, even to give every man according to his ways, and according to the fruit of his doings. ~ Jeremiah 17:10   

The man in the laundry mat, for instance, could have used the calmness and strength of Jesus, in order to help him control his anger, and see the error of his ways.  I have seen this in my own life; that I felt peace where there had been anger in the past.

You can have a nice life in the life of Christ if you recognize the importance of the peace He can give you to get through the day in all your trials and tribulations.  It is like a training camp for what we are facing now through the end until we are raised up to meet Him in the sky.  This is the time of the rapture when all good Christians will be lifted up in the spirit to meet our Savior face-to-face in the air.  He will be waiting with open arms.      

Christianity · Jesus Christ

Angels In His Service

God's coming whenDoes God talk to you through angels? Or does He allow demons to speak to us in the spiritual realm?  If I pray to be guided, I assume that the supernatural “voices” I hear are those of a spirit, most probably the Lord Jesus Christ’s, assisting us and ministering to us, right?

Oddly, there was a recruiter setting me up for a possible job only I liked another recruiter better who has set me up for an interview tomorrow afternoon. Instead of telling the recruiter, “no, I wasn’t interested”, because she was nice enough and I got far enough along in the conversation that I couldn’t see telling her I wasn’t interested, all of a sudden, I heard a voice in my spirit telling me, “it’s okay, continue on, you’ll be okay”, while I spoke to her on the phone. I was perceiving this message to mean that this wasn’t the job I should go for, for some reason.

The recruiter called me back today a few hours later and said she made a mistake, the job was in Seattle, which has too much traffic to drive into and I don’t want Seattle and told her so in our conversation. She thought it was a job near me on the “East Side” of Seattle, which is a business district, the location being on the east side of Lake Washington, with Seattle being at the southern tip. It’s a nightmare driving into Seattle during commuter times, almost like the Golden Gate or Bay Bridge’s going to San Francisco! So we decided the job wouldn’t work for me. The spiritual voice had let me know that this wasn’t the job for me, and it didn’t work out. Was it an angel? a demon? I get these, where spiritually, they do not oppress me.  They must be the angels, then.  A ministering guide who takes care of me so that I understand where I’m going once I leave this earth and, as one of His elect, how I will walk this earth, while I am here.

From this I can say that I honestly believe the Father will give us what we ask, as long as he is satisfied we are asking in a pure heart, and of course, that we ask in his Son’s name, that of Jesus Christ.  I ask that I be given a job that I can sustain myself with as far as the income that I need, and from here on out I will continue to believe that.  He will, as long as I remain in His kingdom, and stay focused on that.  Here’s a verse about how angels protect us and may be answering our prayers in a manner that we can hear them.

Are they not all ministering spirits, sent forth to minister for them who shall be heirs of salvation? ~ Hebrews 1:14

In his 1976 sermon, “Angels: God’s Invisible Army, Part 3“, John MacArthur said that, “God’s angels are ministering to the physical care and protection and guidance of God’s children”.  He goes on, “… there are four categories of ministry for angels.  They minister to God, they minister to Christ, they minister to the believer, and they minister to the unbeliever.  Those are the four categories in which angels minister.”  I felt a swelling in my heart as I wrote this and felt tears beginning to well up in my eyes.

It’s a supernatural gift to feel this, about the angels and God’s Kingdom, really.  Who would know how mysterious He is and what He wants for our lives?

Maybe angels don’t know, exactly, what our life’s plan with God is, maybe they know and don’t tell us.  I would certainly like to know what my life’s plan is that God wants for my life.  I feel a slight guidance and an angel is, I presume, whispering this fantastic revelation in my ear.  I have another one that battles the first one, and tells me some disturbing thoughts that he wants me to become fearful of.

Oh how magnificantly we hear things from God; his angels and the demons that are to be kicked out of the world and chained up for a time, finally being destroyed completely while we move on for eternity.  In His Kingdom.  You and me, hopefully, and I can say I am truly angry that I don’t have enough time to go further into details in my life that have caused me to really believe in angels; the good ones, because I already have believed in the bad ones; it’s just that I didn’t know what to call it then, the things I have suffered with them in the past.  They are whirling around me but cannot be let in, not the way that they were.  

It’s a fantastical life we have on God’s earth, demons and all.  We are headed for some truly magnificant experiences for all eternity!

Christianity · Jesus Christ · John MacArthur

John MacArthur’s, “For Whom Did Christ Die?” video

I heard a great teaching last night on who Christ died for.  He died for “his elect”, not for the world as has been taught for so long in churchs.  I, myself, had felt confusion because one person says to share the Word with people, and they make a decision to come to believe on the Lord Jesus Christ.  This is what I thought was the truth.  Then someone came along to burst my bubble and I learned something new.

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John MacArthur preaches, captured on YouTube at uploaded by Grace To You. His website is at Screenshot taken by sleboeuf, from his video, entitled, “For Whom Did Christ Die? (Selected Scriptures)” .

Pastor John MacArthur, in his Grace To You video entitled, “For Whom Did Christ Die?(Selected Scriptures)”, explained that God chooses people that Jesus watches over.  We are chosen.  Christ died on the cross for his chosen people’s sins, not everyone’s sins in the whole, wide world!  At about 20 minutes into the video, Pr. MacArthur starts making it clear, that Jesus did not die for the whole world.  Then at approximately 36 minutes, he shares scripture, from the book of John.  This is the one that hit me the hardest:

I pray for them: I pray not for the world, but for them which thou hast given me; for they are thine. – John 17:9 

Jesus prays for “them which thou hast given me”, and this seals the deal for me.

John MacArthur goes on to explain how we get our belief from God.  We wouldn’t be capable by our own humanity to believe in the Lord Jesus.  So this tells me that we couldn’t believe on Him, without His gift of belief, of growing our faith, of being the author and finisher of our faith, as it says in Hebrews:

Looking unto Jesus the author and finisher of our faith; who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is set down at the right hand of the throne of God. – Hebrews 12:2

So as a child while I was not told about the Lord Jesus Christ, I had no way of learning about Him, of hearing His name spoken in my household among my family members, so He cannot come to a child’s heart, when the parents don’t want Him in their home.  That is why I couldn’t believe on Him as a young child growing up, and it only was when I was harmed beyond control, that I came to God.  That I felt I needed Him, to stop me from going into a suicidal black darkness in my life.  I had enough faith to go to those 12-Step Recovery meetings, but I had no knowledge of His Word.

One way I can help others find God is to publish my thoughts on how I was conformed to His Word, and late in life, after having an atheist family to grow up in and never having the Words of the Lord Jesus Christ spoken at my home.  I missed a lot and I hope I can help someone understand Jesus better and who He really is.  

Christianity · Inspiration · Jesus Christ

Inspiring Message For You

pink flowersI was driving home one night last week and I felt an overwhelming feeling of gratitude in my heart for the Lord Jesus Christ.  It was at night and I grabbed my microphone I keep handy in my car for times such as this when I feel moved to record something to either keep, and remind myself later to do, or I have something overpowering I need to say and record it.

This was no different, and grabbing my hand-held tape recorder with a microphone that is easy to speak into, I did record something that became words, and more words, growing into a profound few seconds that I cherish.  I knew it had to be from God.  It was a profound sentence to me that hit me at a time that I needed to know God was real, and who was with me that night, a special message to me that gave me inspiration traveling as a Christian through life.  

A life of living far from home, with no one that I really knew, who might care about me living in a van, driving at night to get somewhere who might have an accident, or the car might break down, or anything could happen to me.

Here is it below, click the link, and may you find some inspiration in the short recording of the words I had been given that needed to be expressed to others.  



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A Fake Jesus Shows Himself To Be Psychotic In Nature: What Blasphemy!

ghost-156969_1280I’m a little worried about all the people I know who are misled into thinking that Jesus appears as a “cloud of smoke”, or that Jesus’ joy consists of “laughing for hours” because his joy is so strong and other “manifestations” that people report about being special to God, being of God and having that “anointing” that is so strong and powerful that they become spokesmen for a certain church or belief.

And he said unto him, If they hear not Moses and the prophets, neither will they be persuaded, though one rose from the dead. (Luke 16:31)

I wonder at how long the Lord will contain Himself, watching these ministers who spout miraculous healings, or Words of God that they receive, speaking in tongues all over the place, even teaching their flocks to “speak in tongues”?  My grief is that so many people will follow these preachers, not reading their bibles, and walking with Christ, but walking after these “signs and wonders preachers”, instead?

Won’t people be grieved to find they are not “known by God”, they have been too naive and trusting, to be led by preachers that have to have “signs and wonders” at their churches in order to prove that the Lord Jesus Christ is there?  Who do we follow, man or God?

My experiences in various false Divinity Schools has shown me that these “signs and wonders” teachers turn into leaders into the “miraculous”, that they are not followers of Christ, but of man.  Every “miracle” is not necessarily of God.  We are going down a slippery slope to believe that every “impartation, vision or sign” is automatically that of God.  Satan is a deceiver, who will lead people away from believing on the Lord Jesus Christ.  

Who needs signs and wonders to believe?  Why is it that they must preach in signs and wonders in order to prove faith?

Then said Jesus unto him, Except ye see signs and wonders, ye will not believe. (John 4:48)

Who today supplants their faith with the need to see, or experience, signs and wonders? Faith is believing, sight unseen.

Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen. (Hebrews 11:1)

I recall someone saying, the Jews needed signs and the Greeks needed logic.  How about blind faith?  You hear the word of God, and you believe?

So then faith cometh by hearing, and hearing by the word of God.  (Romans 10:17)

People are too young in the Lord to really believe Him, without resorting to “proofs”.  Keep with your faith, do not be side-tracked into thinking that Jesus will perform special magic tricks to prove you believe. 


We cannot be turned from the truth about God, we must hold true to the bible and our faith.  God doesn’t need to show Himself in weird phenomena, He gave us his Word and that is enough.  We cannot let false teaching invade the church.  I offer a link to a message about seducing spirits by  John MacArthur.

The problem is, these false preachers lead people away from Jesus, to follow them.  They amass quite a following.

I must say it is a mental phenomena, to me, that so many would want a following so badly that they would look for signs and wonders to invade their churches, just so they can excite or impress people, grow their “flock” and maybe become famous.  

Look how many preachers seem to enjoy getting that special Word from God, thinking they are more special than others, so that they get that special message from God, and decree that you will have this or that.  I am tired of the showmanship where it is no longer about God, but about them.  These men and women of God who practice “little god” doctrines, who want all eyes to be on them, but not on the Lord Jesus Christ.  They play at being a “god”, because they want all the adulation, are self-seeking, ego-seeking and not of God.

I ask, who played at being a god, but was thrown out of heaven?

For false Christs and false prophets will appear and perform great signs and wonders that would deceive even the elect, if that were possible.  (Matthew 24:24)

I’m watching a disturbing video about how people are led to believe that Jesus is, and what he does with people.  It is very disturbing, talking about the Jesus Culture, in this particular video.  People shake, laugh for hours, see smoke in the air, and they call this a manifestation of Jesus.  They are looking for “an experience with God”, and sadly they are being misled.  They are not discerning the true Spirit of God.

Part 2: Jesus Culture – a Call for Discernment, Are you sure it’s your Jesus?

I was once part of this popular culture of spirits, of demons, really, which are the seducing spirits God talks about.  Spirits that led me to believe that I was being “slain in the spirit” for some strange reason.  Talking in tongues of gibberish, meaning nothing, not knowing I did not have to “hide” my prayers in “my prayer language”, so that Satan wold not understand what I was saying.  My prayers are heard and understood by God.  I do not need a special “prayer language” so that God knows secretly, what I am praying, so maybe this will protect my prayers from being understood by Satan.  Is Satan a threat to the Lord Jesus Christ?

All I can say is, wow.  I didn’t know we had such an unmighty, unvictorious Savior, like Christ who was raised from the dead, came back to walk the earth, and then ascend up into Heaven where he sits at the right hand of the Father.  Do I need to hide my prayers for God to be safe enough to understand them so that Satan will not hear?  When did Jesus overcome Satan, then?  Was it not the truth that Jesus has already been victorious over death, and that after a time, Satan will be no more on earth?

But fire came down from heaven and devoured them. And the devil, who deceived them, was thrown into the lake of burning sulfur, where the beast and the false prophet had been thrown. They will be tormented day and night for ever and ever.” (Revelation 20:9b-10)

Looking back, I see with great sadness how people want “the experience”, and, like a drug seeker who wants that “high”, and an altered state of experience, they are still seeking the seducer who calls them back, to relive that “special encounter” they are having with (a) god.  It is not Jesus.  It has become the broad highway, going in the opposite direction of the straight and narrow path that few will follow.  Who are you following?

I have more to say about my studying, and becoming an “ordained minister” in a few of these places, which I do not aspire to use ever in my life.  I reject the counter-culture I see in various churches I have attended, schools I have graduated from as well as churches I have attended.  I reject this “touchy-feely”, “unity spiritual” and “encounter groups” I have been a witness to, unfortunately.  I have seen the truth through the eyes of Christ by reading my bible every day, and leaning on Him to teach me through the Holy Spirit’s opening my eyes while I read and study His Word.  I am hoping you do, too.